Still packing.

Sigh.

Last minute packer ...

Buy buy buy. Pack pack pack.

Sigh.

I tend to overpack. I'm packing my speakers. Seriously. I feel like I need those things. Can't do without music.

Had the most ... inexplicable dream last night. Definitely not from stress.

Started packing today ... a wee, wee bit.

Then I went to SY's house (pole) party. I actually enjoyed it more than I thought I would, even with my little accident (dress slipped and my boob popped out - Joey assured me only she saw it, but I seriously doubt it).

At the end of the party, the girls that were there surprised me with a farewell pressie - a personalized (pole) calendar! That really touched me; I worry they'd forget me.

It's kinda sad - with my leaving, Daphne's (unplanned) pregnancy, and Jessy's transfer to private classes, the class might be too small to run. It'd be awful if everybody had to split up and joined different classes ... =(

Meena Kumari ft. Khayyam - 'चाँद तनहा है'

चांद तन्‍हा है आसमां तन्‍हा
दिल मिला है कहां कहां तन्‍हा

chaaNd tanhaa hai aasmaaN tanhaa
dil milaa hai kahaaN kahaaN tanhaa

बुझ गई आस छुप गया तारा
थार-थराता रहा धुंआ तनहा

bujh gaii aas chhup gayaa taaraa
thar-tharaataa rahaa dhuaaN tanhaa

जिंदगी क्‍या इसी को कहते हैं
जिस्‍म तन्‍हा है और हां तन्‍हां

zindagii kyaa isii ko kahte haiN
jism tanhaa hai aur jaaN tanhaa

हमसफर कोई गर मिले भी कहीं
दोनों चलते रहे तन्‍हा तन्‍हा

ham-safar ko'ii gar mile bhi kahiiN
donoN chalte rahe tanhaa tanhaa

जलती बुझती सी रोशनी के परे
सिमटा सिमटा सा इक मकां तन्‍हां

jaltii bujhtii si raushnii ke pare
simTaa simTaa sa ek makaaN tanhaa

राह देखा करेगा सदियों तक
छोड़ जायेंगे ये जहां तन्‍हा

raaH dekhaa karegaa sadiyoN tak
chhoR jaayeNge ye jahaaN tanhaa


Translation:
Moon is alone and sky is alone
My heart goes alone on the journey
Day has brought the light but the hope is lost

My existence trembles alone
Is this the life
Where body and soul walk separately

Though I found companion during my journey
We kept walking separately

Far away on other side of that dim light
I see a small, closed and confined heart
It will wait for me for ages

After I walk alone from this world

Try as I might, I couldn't locate this CD in Singapore, nor my Dad in India. I can't even begin to explain how and why I love Meena Kumari so much.

'Tis true I've always been attracted to sorrow and melancholia.

Stupid Blogger wouldn't give me access last night.

Last day in the office today although I asked that my email account not be deleted until Jen starts. I leave in a few days and haven't packed! Yikes!

Was stressed earlier on thinking about the move, but am feeling more optimistic now. There's a number of things I wanna do next year in addition to my degree. Hopefully I'd have the resources and time to do them all.

Realized today that Mephisto is my new hero, the closest one to Stephen Fry - Mephisto can be witty, speaks 4 languagues, and had studied Latin. My hero! I want to be like him when I grow up - minus the abrasive, caustic, and emotionally unavailable bits.

Also, I don't think I wanna grow old alone ...

Watched (in this order): Being Cyrus (sorta funny, nice twist - Dimple! Kapadia!), Woh Kaun Thi? (sorta interesting; nice music), and Chak De India.

I totally love Chak De India! It's the Bollywood feel-good - enough tension and tears-swelling (with pride) moments to make it a thoroughly enjoyable ride - and as soon as it ended, I couldn't wait to watch it again, especially one of my favorite bits.

Women. Hockey. Kicking ass. 'Nuff said - what's not to love?

Well ... maybe the role of the coach could've gone to someone like Rahul Bose or Aamir Khan. SRK's tears-in-eyes shtick should be restricted to his family/rom-com movies. Every time I saw tears in his eyes in the movie, millions of Rajs and Rahuls, nightmares of assorted Karan Johar flicks, and SLB's Devdas flashed before my eyes.

Thought today might be a good day when I woke up to learn I'd been granted the Graduate Award and good weather (sunny, windy). Was pretty surprise about the Graduate Award - I applied last year too, but didn't get it.

This just means I might be able to put away NZD 5,000 in a fixed deposit.

And that I gotta remember how to be a good student next year ... I think. =|

Nellie McKay - 'Cupcake'

Album: Pretty Little Head

Cupcake - Nellie McKay

You know, I really thought I'd be upset. Like, really upset. Goddess knows, I was completely miserable the last time I said arrivederci.

Last words from the boss today, "If I don't see you again, enjoy the rest of your life."

I must've rolled my eyes or smiled (or both) in response; didn't say goodbye though. I've a feeling I might see him again, but I'm not holding my breath.

Bought Chak De India, Bunty aur Babli, Woh Kaun Thi? (yay! When I find Anita, I'd have the complete trilogy!), and Jab We Met today when I was in Mustafa doing a bit of comparative shopping (needed to stock up on sanitary pads and some toiletries before leaving) - my preventive remedy.

What I saw in the bus yesterday morning:



(On the left: a bible; on the right: I Don't Have Enough Faith to be an Atheist. Snort.)

A.R. Rahman & Shweta Shetty - 'Mangta Hai Kya'

Album: Rangeela OST

Mangta Hai Kya - AR Rahman

I've finally come to really realized today that if I want something that's available and being offered, I shouldn't be shy about voicing out my desire; as I was told by both C and her mother last year: Be shameless about it.

Was withdrawn and quiet (and a little down) during dinner, but I'm usually quiet when the boss is around, and I was sitting next to the boss. I'm a natural audience (read: wallflower) and he's a natural showman.

But I feel so much better now - so good that I've been wondering what a sausage wrapped with bacon (pig-in-a-blanket) means (other than a massive coronary waiting to happen). There's something vaguely dirty and lewd about it ... =|

Squeeeeeeee!

I have to say, today - tonight - has been pretty fucking awesome. Still hyped up from the Christmas Pole Jam even though I didn't ingest any of the sugary sins offered and suffered the mother of a calf cramp midway. I won 2 pressies too!

Looking forward to SY's Christmas party next week (hopefully there'll be an impromptu pole jam); disappointed I'll be missing Kimi's housewarming party next month. I'm gonna miss my pole-mates - for once, I feel like I really belong somewhere.

(Today: "You're gonna realize later that I liked you." (Past tense?, I'd thought, but only responded with a Gallic shrug.) हाँ, वह शैतान है, मगर मुझ को बहुत पसंद है.)

High today, low tomorrow. (Actually, I predict Friday's the day.)

Well, a little over an hour before the Christmas Pole Jam. Am in the office, having done with a not-good-at-all dinner; I should go shopping instead of sitting on my bum in the office web-surfing.

But I'd picked up my tin of cookies (CranLychee) from the Cookie Museum, and have another 500g bag of cookies (bought on sale months ago from Candy Empire) to lug around. So ... =|

I want something hot and sweet to drink, but the hot chocolates served in coffee places around here give me the runs. Very bad runs.

Sigh. But ... I want something hot and sweet and decaffeinated!

Asha Bhosle & Mohd. Rafi - 'Yeh Ladka Hai Allah'

Album: Hum Kisise Kum Nahin

Yeh Ladka Hai Allah - Asha Bhosle & Mohd. Rafi

Today: "Are you sure ...?", and, "Are you booked -?" (- "Yes.") सलाह कमीना! =/

Tomorrow: Christmas Pole Jam! Yay!


What's with the dreams I've been having of late? Sigh ... Well, I don't mind if they get whatever it is outta my system.

Asha Bhosle - 'Tanha Tanha'

Album: Rangeela OST

Tanha Tanha Yahan Pe Jeena - Asha Bhonsle

I know he's doing it on purpose to annoy me.

"You're really leaving ...?" my ass! "Our girl's leaving ..." my ass!

कमीना! वोह मुझे तंग क्यों कर रहा है? >=/

शैतान!

Was so tired yesterday after 2 hours of pole followed immediately by 4 hours in the office, by the time I got home, I was barely conscious.

Slept for nearly 12 hours - but with a huge production of a dream which had me waking up at intervals.

My back feels really bad. It's been that way for the past week or two. I hope it's just the weather ... and lack of pole.

=(