Wednesday, February 28, 2007

R.E.M. - 'I'll Take The Rain'

Album: Reveal

I used to think
As birds take wing
They sing through life so why can't we
You cling to this
You claim your best
If this is what you're offering
I'll take the rain
I'll take the rain
I'll take the rain

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Frankie Chan & Roel A. Garcia - 'Second Killing'

Album: Fallen Angels OST

I haven't been scribbling lately either.

It feels like forever since I last scribbled.

The Cure - 'Lullaby'

Album: Disintegration

I had a flash of loneliness and insecurity shot through me, and I don't have my usual crutch: poetry.

It's so difficult to find poetry that I could and would read.

Monday, February 26, 2007

David Darling & the Wulu Bunun - 'Lugu Lugu Kan-Ibi'

Album: The Very Best of the Far East

First as we were descending to Changi Airport, then again on the cab ride home, I mused about how it could be nice to fly into Singapore because: one, you get to breeze through the passport check as a citizen/permament resident; and two, you could view Singapore through tourist lenses.

I think it's always nice to pretend to be a tourist in Singapore.

Friday, February 23, 2007

Dennis Brown - 'Things In Life'

Album: Money In My Pocket: Anthology 1970 - 1955

Frazzled Friday.

Mr. N. offered an extension of my contract for 30 hours/week, minimum of 6 months (but he says he'll be gunning for 12 when he speaks with the APJ G.M.).

I don't know what to do.

Looks like I'm gonna be spending my weekend in Bangkok thinking it through. He wants an answer by Monday.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Reena Bharadwaj - 'Yeh Rishta'

Album: Meenaxi: Tale of Three Cities OST

Well, I think tomorrow's gonna be a loooooong day.

After I knock off, I'm BBK-bound.

I'm gonna miss Doggie so very muchly.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Sunn 0))) & Boris - 'Sinking Belle (Blue Sheep)'

Album: Altar

Tired after a full day of doing nothing, I turned down Pumpkin's invitation for a midnight supper ... even though I don't have to work tomorrow.

Nothing unto nothing.

Bonobo - 'Recurring'

Album: Days To Come

I'm bored and - quite suddenly - really aimless, directionless.

Lost.

Monday, February 19, 2007

Manbai - 'Kau Ilhamku'

Spent the day eating, card-making, eating, web-surfing and eating, eating, reading, watching Miami Ink and eating, web-surfing and eating, eating, walking the dog, and eating.



Year of the Pig, indeed.

Fat Freddy's Drop - 'Dark Days'

Album: Based On A True Story

I survived.



Save one prolonged tense moment when I was fighting to keep from saying, "You see me three bloody hours once a fucking year, you fuck. What the fuck makes you think you're qualified to weigh in on how I live my fucking life?"

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Yoko Ono and Le Tigre - 'Sisters O Sisters'

Album: Yes, I'm A Witch

Thought of the day:
Thursday's children have far to go because, if the rest of them are like me, they have no sense of direction whatsoever in life.

Friday, February 16, 2007

Sukhwinder Singh - 'Aaj Mera Jee Kardaa (Today My Heart Desires)'

Album: Monsoon Wedding OST

I am forced to admit my personal Lunar New Year traditions of the purchase of mithāī (must haves: laddū and katli) and the application of mehndi, when the Indian man told me he was surprised to see me - a Chinese - in Little India on the eve of Lunar New Year Eve.

But, seriously, how will I survive the foisted-on and force-fed Chineseness and Chinese traditions without a generous dollop of something Indian?

Still - mujhe mār dālā!

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Fat Freddy's Drop - 'Cay's Crays'

Album: Based On A True Story

Ab shurū ho gayā.



Hāi bhagvān: bacāo!

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Mohd Aslam & Naresh Iyer - 'Paathshala'

Album: Rang De Basanti OST

10:50
Toilet realization: I’m bored, so utterly bored with work - it’s time to move on, maybe.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Aslam, Blaaze & Naresh Iyer - 'Paathshala (Be A Rebel)'

Album: Rang De Basanti OST

Bathroom duh-lization: you can resolve all you want to be strong, but you'll only know how strong your resolve is when you really have to be strong.

Monday, February 12, 2007

A.R. Rahman, Sunitha Sarathy & Tanvi - 'Fanaa'

Album: Yuva OST

If you started crying while you were eating, whatever you eat will taste of a broken heart and tears.

Even when the rivulets of tears do not run anywhere close to your mouth.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Jomi Massage - 'Undressing Aloud'

No, it's not desire that hurts.

It's not having.

To miss.

Shankar Mahadevan - 'Yenna Solla Pogirai'

Album: Kandukondain Kandukondain OST

I just realized how crazy it is that I try to avoid situations where I'd get hurt when even simply to want hurts so much.



According to the translation I found of the lyrics of this song I suddenly crave:
It takes you only a moment to say no
To bear the hurt
I will have to be born again and again

(The subtitles of the video is slightly different though. It's an awesome picturization, one of my favorites.)

Friday, February 09, 2007

Theme Music (Instrumental)

Album: Yaadein OST

This morning, I finally broke the five-day loop of Z-Trip vs. Run Run Run's cover of Mazzy Star's 'Fade Into You'; I woke up hearing Of Montreal's 'Requiem for O.M.M.2 (United States of Electronica Remix).

Especially "... it's such a burden to carry 'round / the vestiges of dead dreams".

I have to wonder what that could possibly mean in the context of my internal landscape.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Z-Trip vs. Run Run Run - 'Fade Into You' (Mazzy Star cover)

Album: Endless Winter

Is it easier to make changes on the outside and move inwards, or is it easier to work from inside out?

And, is this a egg-chicken conundrum?

Z-Trip vs. Run Run Run - 'Fade Into You' (Mazzy Star cover)

Album: Endless Winter

Yesterday, I wanted a new hair-style, new inkings, new piercings.

Last night, I dreamed I had a pair of piercings, on my pelvic bone.

Suddenly I wonder if I've already begun undergoing metamorphosis, have already started (or completed) the weaving of my gossamer cocoon, and am now waiting, with the rest of the world, to see what will emerge.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Guthur - 'Statements'

Album: Sundet

I told Sajitha 'no' this morning.

I've been second-guessing myself.

Sometimes I feel like my life's the one that's fucked up, who's fucked up. Not me.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Beth Gibbons & Rustin Man - 'Funny Time of Year'

Album: Out Of Seaon

Playing with my ears in the bus, I suddenly felt it was time to get something done - again: ink or bling.

I thought about getting a quickie, something basic, like on the ear; then again, I'd been thinking of ink as a birthday pressie for myself since last year ...



Sometimes I wonder if it might be cheaper if I were into self-multilation. After all, how much can a fucking blade cost? (Not to mention I've refills, man, for my graphic knife.)

Monday, February 05, 2007

Z-Trip vs. Run Run Run - 'Fade Into You' (Mazzy Star cover)

Album: Endless Winter

I woke up hearing Z-Trip's remix of Run Run Run's cover of 'Fade Into You'.

That's a first - wonder what kind of day I'll be having.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

R.E.M. - I've Been High

Album: Reveal

I didn't seem to fully wake up today.

I remember only vaguely this morning's dream: Alvina taking me to an island by ferry; a woman keep trying to hint to me she was lesbian, which I already know but avoid admitting.

My dreams have been causing unrestful sleep these days, and zits are appearing on my forehead.

Can I be stressed out and not know it?

Kareena Kapoor & Fardeen Khan - 'Jab Nahin Aaye The Tum'

Album: Dev OST

Dark outside save for the darting fireflies that are headlights and the regimented yet weary parade of street lamps; garishly-lit inside a bus full of strangers: why is it that I never feel lonelier than in the course of a long bus ride, late in the night?

I thought of one who won't mind keeping me company during these long commutes, but immediately ejected from my mind as theirs would never be the company I crave.

Would I really prefer abject loneliness to having someone I don't want?

Friday, February 02, 2007

Udit Narayan & Mahalakshmi Iyer - 'E Ajnabi'

Album: Dil Se OST

I realized tonight I'll never get past the barrier of myself.

Even when they didn't give up and kept on at it, forcing me, both captor and captive, out; not even then.

And I have to wonder why I am so absolutely phobic it - tearing open my chest to reveal in the bloody gaping wound a rhythmically pumping heart.

And if they kept at it, I run for my life - the one I don't have and am not living.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Fujiya & Miyagi - 'Sucker Punch'

Album: Transparent Things

Just when I think I'm okay, someone, something, blindsides me, completely derails me, and I'm careening all over the place.

But it's time I start thinking I'm strong enough to deal with it.

I am, because I have to be.

That's the way life is.

(Blessed Imbolc/Lammas, world. I hope Brigid is watching over the ones slaved to her craft.)