Album: From Dusk Til Dawn OST
Horoscope suggested it; I took it. Played hooky from work. Was so tired I felt I could collapse.
Went back to bed around 9 AM and woke up just in time for lunch. Watched Invisible Waves (Tadanobu has lovely hair!).
Hmm. I like playing hooky.
Think I'll go dance now.
As of this moment, this is the best advice a horoscope has ever given.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Ennio Morricone - 'Paranoia Prima'
Album: Death Proof OST
Occurred to me today that I should be fretting over whether or not that boy would post all those pictures he took of Jit and me on Saturday; but then I remembered: The more salacious the shot, the more obscured my face had been. 'Tis all good. Still, I shall be mighty pissed off if I found anything online ...
On the the bleaker side, was asked if I'd be into a threesome.
So tired these days I feel dizzy half the time. The cab driver reminded me that the lack of sleep would lead to older-looking skin.
Will resolve to sleep earlier on weekdays.
Occurred to me today that I should be fretting over whether or not that boy would post all those pictures he took of Jit and me on Saturday; but then I remembered: The more salacious the shot, the more obscured my face had been. 'Tis all good. Still, I shall be mighty pissed off if I found anything online ...
On the the bleaker side, was asked if I'd be into a threesome.
So tired these days I feel dizzy half the time. The cab driver reminded me that the lack of sleep would lead to older-looking skin.
Will resolve to sleep earlier on weekdays.
Dave Dee, Dozy, Beaky, Mick & Tich - 'Hold Tight'
Album: Death Proof OST
The first of the goodbyes have started. Hege, today; Saket, tomorrow. Later on, Min; and still later on, Rach. I don't know if I'd ever say goodbye myself.
People come, and people go; I just wish some of them would stay a little longer. Especially those who have made such a difference in my life, who have helped shaped a part of what and who I am now.
But I also hope this means I'll be saying hellos real soon, too, to new people, and to the familiar ones who should return.
तो अलविदा नहीं - फिर मिलेंगे मेरे दोस्तों.
The first of the goodbyes have started. Hege, today; Saket, tomorrow. Later on, Min; and still later on, Rach. I don't know if I'd ever say goodbye myself.
People come, and people go; I just wish some of them would stay a little longer. Especially those who have made such a difference in my life, who have helped shaped a part of what and who I am now.
But I also hope this means I'll be saying hellos real soon, too, to new people, and to the familiar ones who should return.
तो अलविदा नहीं - फिर मिलेंगे मेरे दोस्तों.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Tito & Las Tarantulas - 'After Dark'
Album: From Dusk Til Dawn OST
Retroactively unsatisfied.
I want to dance some more. I want to learn new moves.
Gotta stop dirty dancing.
Retroactively unsatisfied.
I want to dance some more. I want to learn new moves.
Gotta stop dirty dancing.
Coasters - 'Down In Mexico'
Album: Death Proof OST
Hungry as hell. Pissed off that my high had worn off before I got home.
Insult to injury: I feel so cheap and used too.
I will consider being a fluffer again - but only if I get paid to do it. No more dirty dancing. No more getting it on with a prick-tease.
Gah. Wash make-up off. Brush teeth. Shower. Moisturize lips. To bed.
Desmond's gonna be exasperated with me the next time I go to him (prolly Tuesday); especially after Sanice told me (just on Friday) that my baby was healing well, too.
=(
Hungry as hell. Pissed off that my high had worn off before I got home.
Insult to injury: I feel so cheap and used too.
I will consider being a fluffer again - but only if I get paid to do it. No more dirty dancing. No more getting it on with a prick-tease.
Gah. Wash make-up off. Brush teeth. Shower. Moisturize lips. To bed.
Desmond's gonna be exasperated with me the next time I go to him (prolly Tuesday); especially after Sanice told me (just on Friday) that my baby was healing well, too.
=(
Friday, October 26, 2007
Nine Inch Nails - 'The Downward Spiral'
Album: The Downward Spiral
So the blood tests results came back. I was expecting a clean bill; it wasn't. Nothing too serious according to my doc; the results read:
Bottom-line: 15-25% of my blood is "bad" (his word), and I prolly have alpha thalassemia trait.
I've always known I was defected, but the older I get, I realize I'm actually more defected than I'd thought. According to Wikipedia, "Thalassemia Minor often coexists with other diseases such as asthma[5], and mood disorders[6]."
Both physically and psychologically defected.
Not only am I cursed by the stars, I'm also damaged goods ...
=...(
So the blood tests results came back. I was expecting a clean bill; it wasn't. Nothing too serious according to my doc; the results read:
Dyserythropoietic changes present suggestive of thalassaemia trait. There is a mild leucopenia. No early cell seen.
Bottom-line: 15-25% of my blood is "bad" (his word), and I prolly have alpha thalassemia trait.
I've always known I was defected, but the older I get, I realize I'm actually more defected than I'd thought. According to Wikipedia, "Thalassemia Minor often coexists with other diseases such as asthma[5], and mood disorders[6]."
Both physically and psychologically defected.
Not only am I cursed by the stars, I'm also damaged goods ...
=...(
Thursday, October 25, 2007
The Mountain Goats - 'Love Love Love'
Album: The Sunset Tree
This is my one and only achievement in an otherwise completely unproductive day:
I won spectactularly!
And my current track record stands at:
Whoever Cheryl is, she's one helluva player, the best I've come across so far, even if the score doesn't reflect that. I stayed up till 2 AM this morning, playing with her. Gave me quite a challenge.
I like.
=)
This is my one and only achievement in an otherwise completely unproductive day:
I won spectactularly!
And my current track record stands at:
Jithra [...]: You won. Final Score: 0 to 60
Blake [...]: You won. Final Score: 9 to 55
Cheryl [...]: You won. Final Score: 16 to 48
ChihLeng [...]: You won. Final Score: 13 to 51
ChihLeng [...]: You won. Final Score: 46 to 18
Jithra [...]: You won. Final Score: 54 to 10
Keith [...]: You won. Final Score: 45 to 19
Hannah [...]: You won. Final Score: 5 to 59
Rachel [...]: You won. Final Score: 57 to 7
Bana [...]: You won. Final Score: 16 to 48
Louise [...]: You won. Final Score: 8 to 56
Whoever Cheryl is, she's one helluva player, the best I've come across so far, even if the score doesn't reflect that. I stayed up till 2 AM this morning, playing with her. Gave me quite a challenge.
I like.
=)
Catatonia - 'Mulder And Scully'
Album: International Velvet
Heard this song in my head in the middle of the work-day. Cause: Obviously not work-related.
:::
Finally saw her the first time in - I don't know - maybe four years. She still looks as she did back then, but she couldn't be more different than the girl in the first two years of our friendship.
She's like an Earth Mother, forever my idol and superstar.
"All you need is a dream." Wise words from a wise woman-child.
Maybe that could be my motto from now on.
Heard this song in my head in the middle of the work-day. Cause: Obviously not work-related.
Finally saw her the first time in - I don't know - maybe four years. She still looks as she did back then, but she couldn't be more different than the girl in the first two years of our friendship.
She's like an Earth Mother, forever my idol and superstar.
"All you need is a dream." Wise words from a wise woman-child.
Maybe that could be my motto from now on.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Panic! At The Disco - 'But It's Better If You Do'
Album: A Fever You Can't Sweat Out
Just a quick note in-between my waiting for my opponents to make their moves: I'm fucking (re-)addicted to the boardgame that's named for a certain overly-suspicious husband (or maybe not - I don't know).
That, and Scrabulous.
So if you're reading this, and you're on the Facebook (I mean, really, who isn't?), please add the apps and invite me to a game (or two dozens). If I'm able to beat you at one, then you'll prolly be able to rout me in the other (I've never played Scrabbles until today - pretty odd for an English major - and I suck like your best vacuum at it).
Gah! I can't get outta the games! I keep clicking on the "Start a random game" because ... gawd forbid anybody should take longer than a minute to make their next move ... =|
Just a quick note in-between my waiting for my opponents to make their moves: I'm fucking (re-)addicted to the boardgame that's named for a certain overly-suspicious husband (or maybe not - I don't know).
That, and Scrabulous.
So if you're reading this, and you're on the Facebook (I mean, really, who isn't?), please add the apps and invite me to a game (or two dozens). If I'm able to beat you at one, then you'll prolly be able to rout me in the other (I've never played Scrabbles until today - pretty odd for an English major - and I suck like your best vacuum at it).
Gah! I can't get outta the games! I keep clicking on the "Start a random game" because ... gawd forbid anybody should take longer than a minute to make their next move ... =|
Cassie - 'Just One Night'
Album: Cassie
Such a headache tonight. Focus switched to a more trivial (yet no less stressful) item: Saturday, party, no costume, pressure to put on "scarlet lipstick" because "it'll look great with your complexion".
I mean, I figure I look scarier if I went as ... my regular ol' self, sans make-up and hair-care. Also, I really don't wanna go as The Fugliest Blind Drag Queen In The World ...
To all those so-called friends who, in reply to my request for costume suggestions ("something that's completely not me"), answered, "Angel": Thanks for nothin'!
=/
Such a headache tonight. Focus switched to a more trivial (yet no less stressful) item: Saturday, party, no costume, pressure to put on "scarlet lipstick" because "it'll look great with your complexion".
I mean, I figure I look scarier if I went as ... my regular ol' self, sans make-up and hair-care. Also, I really don't wanna go as The Fugliest Blind Drag Queen In The World ...
To all those so-called friends who, in reply to my request for costume suggestions ("something that's completely not me"), answered, "Angel": Thanks for nothin'!
=/
Monday, October 22, 2007
John Wesley Harding - 'I'm Wrong About Everything'
Album: High Fidelity OST
Been having strange dreams lately. Although they aren't really nightmarish or distressing, I know they're born of the anxiety I'm trying to ignore and not let get to me.
Stress is not having enough time and energy to complete everything, because I don't know how to prioritize. In addition to putting together an application, I owe Christine a topic (due tomorrow, before she goes on sabbatical; with the five-hour difference, I'm really not gonna make it), and have Jess's manuscript to edit.
All by this week.
And Wednesday through Friday (and prolly Saturday as well) will be taken up by dance (pole, belly, and exotic).
- No.
I'll smile and make it.
Because I must.
Been having strange dreams lately. Although they aren't really nightmarish or distressing, I know they're born of the anxiety I'm trying to ignore and not let get to me.
Stress is not having enough time and energy to complete everything, because I don't know how to prioritize. In addition to putting together an application, I owe Christine a topic (due tomorrow, before she goes on sabbatical; with the five-hour difference, I'm really not gonna make it), and have Jess's manuscript to edit.
All by this week.
And Wednesday through Friday (and prolly Saturday as well) will be taken up by dance (pole, belly, and exotic).
- No.
I'll smile and make it.
Because I must.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Jay Gordon - 'Slept So Long'
Album: Queen of the Damned OST
Woke up at 13:00 plus today - a first (and personal triumph).
Am I selfish ... or just human? Maybe a horribly selfish human.
Wondering (for the umpteenth time) whether my life fucks up or I do - or is that just the way things are for me? My heart tells me no, my mind tells me I know better; for once they're in accord.
Yet I still choose to ignore them.
'S okay; will only look stupid, and I deserve it - and everything else I have coming.
What the song says.
Woke up at 13:00 plus today - a first (and personal triumph).
Am I selfish ... or just human? Maybe a horribly selfish human.
Wondering (for the umpteenth time) whether my life fucks up or I do - or is that just the way things are for me? My heart tells me no, my mind tells me I know better; for once they're in accord.
Yet I still choose to ignore them.
'S okay; will only look stupid, and I deserve it - and everything else I have coming.
What the song says.
Friday, October 19, 2007
Jessie Mae Hemphill - 'Standing in My Doorway Crying'
Album: Mali to Memphis
- Sent in application for the Graduate Award (which I prolly have a snowball's chance in hell of winning), and will be sending in for the Elaine Geering Scholarship in Literature (ditto).
- Begun the long, drawn-out, and tedious process of gathering the necessary for a visa application.
- Gave up three vials of blood to my doc.
- Realized that I'm no longer as apprehensive towards needles as I was prior to my modifications.
- Desmond declared that my baby is getting better, but warned I should not take it for granted ...
- And must continue abstaining from alcohol for the next four weeks. =(
- Started planning on the next mod: Must be dermal anchor(s)!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Ali Akbar Khan - 'Two Lovers (Mand)'
Album: Garden of Dreams
Most. Aggravating. Day.
(Even if I did purchase two of Marjane Satrapi's books for just SGD 5 each - Chicken with Plums, and Embroideries - as well as Norwegian Wood.)
One of my daily horoscopes did advise to take care when it comes to details, otherwise I'd feel I have an unproductive day. Well, it fucking did come true - and it's not a self-fulfilling prophesy. I thought it referred to work; it bloody wasn't.
And, just now, I realized I'd fucked up - for the second time.
I want to just run away.
Most. Aggravating. Day.
(Even if I did purchase two of Marjane Satrapi's books for just SGD 5 each - Chicken with Plums, and Embroideries - as well as Norwegian Wood.)
One of my daily horoscopes did advise to take care when it comes to details, otherwise I'd feel I have an unproductive day. Well, it fucking did come true - and it's not a self-fulfilling prophesy. I thought it referred to work; it bloody wasn't.
And, just now, I realized I'd fucked up - for the second time.
I want to just run away.
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