A.R. Rahman & Shweta Shetty - 'Mangta Hai Kya'

Album: Rangeela OST

Mangta Hai Kya - AR Rahman

I've finally come to really realized today that if I want something that's available and being offered, I shouldn't be shy about voicing out my desire; as I was told by both C and her mother last year: Be shameless about it.

Was withdrawn and quiet (and a little down) during dinner, but I'm usually quiet when the boss is around, and I was sitting next to the boss. I'm a natural audience (read: wallflower) and he's a natural showman.

But I feel so much better now - so good that I've been wondering what a sausage wrapped with bacon (pig-in-a-blanket) means (other than a massive coronary waiting to happen). There's something vaguely dirty and lewd about it ... =|

Squeeeeeeee!

I have to say, today - tonight - has been pretty fucking awesome. Still hyped up from the Christmas Pole Jam even though I didn't ingest any of the sugary sins offered and suffered the mother of a calf cramp midway. I won 2 pressies too!

Looking forward to SY's Christmas party next week (hopefully there'll be an impromptu pole jam); disappointed I'll be missing Kimi's housewarming party next month. I'm gonna miss my pole-mates - for once, I feel like I really belong somewhere.

(Today: "You're gonna realize later that I liked you." (Past tense?, I'd thought, but only responded with a Gallic shrug.) हाँ, वह शैतान है, मगर मुझ को बहुत पसंद है.)

High today, low tomorrow. (Actually, I predict Friday's the day.)

Well, a little over an hour before the Christmas Pole Jam. Am in the office, having done with a not-good-at-all dinner; I should go shopping instead of sitting on my bum in the office web-surfing.

But I'd picked up my tin of cookies (CranLychee) from the Cookie Museum, and have another 500g bag of cookies (bought on sale months ago from Candy Empire) to lug around. So ... =|

I want something hot and sweet to drink, but the hot chocolates served in coffee places around here give me the runs. Very bad runs.

Sigh. But ... I want something hot and sweet and decaffeinated!

Asha Bhosle & Mohd. Rafi - 'Yeh Ladka Hai Allah'

Album: Hum Kisise Kum Nahin

Yeh Ladka Hai Allah - Asha Bhosle & Mohd. Rafi

Today: "Are you sure ...?", and, "Are you booked -?" (- "Yes.") सलाह कमीना! =/

Tomorrow: Christmas Pole Jam! Yay!


What's with the dreams I've been having of late? Sigh ... Well, I don't mind if they get whatever it is outta my system.

Asha Bhosle - 'Tanha Tanha'

Album: Rangeela OST

Tanha Tanha Yahan Pe Jeena - Asha Bhonsle

I know he's doing it on purpose to annoy me.

"You're really leaving ...?" my ass! "Our girl's leaving ..." my ass!

कमीना! वोह मुझे तंग क्यों कर रहा है? >=/

शैतान!

Was so tired yesterday after 2 hours of pole followed immediately by 4 hours in the office, by the time I got home, I was barely conscious.

Slept for nearly 12 hours - but with a huge production of a dream which had me waking up at intervals.

My back feels really bad. It's been that way for the past week or two. I hope it's just the weather ... and lack of pole.

=(

Duffy - 'Mercy'

Album: Rockferry



This song has some kinda hold on me ...

Anyway, so it occurred to me as I was walking Doggie tonight what (or part thereof) I've been experiencing is separation anxiety. I've gotten attached, and the impending separation is fraught with stress and anxiety for me.

Today the dotted lines were signed, so that's a bit of closure ... I guess, I hope.

Okay. Crash night. I laughed so much last night I was unable to fall asleep - and that too being bone-tired and after taking an Actifed pill.

Great dinner!

I want to rename the Unholy Trinity 'The Kinsey Scale'!

I keep thinking gatherings like these should be recorded for when I'm too old to eat and drink like a champion, and too decrepit to walk and laugh and yak (all at the same time).

Or, the video records could be spliced into a post-millennial 'Reality Bites (For The GLBT & Straight Alike)' of sorts.

Then I'd be able to look back and laugh my ass off, as I had tonight.

If I were old enough, I might even be able to die laughing.

Literally.

Had a terrible sleep last night because I had scary dreams which had me trying to avoid being mauled by a bunch of tigers, then getting tricked and rough-handled by someone I was too trusting towards, and finally trying to keep from falling into the river as I crossed from the pier to a vessel.

Still, I had no recollection of waking up with a heavily thudding heart even though I do remember the dreams and my waking up at some point.

Sigh.

=(

Gimme pole!

Duffy - 'Mercy'

Album: Rockferry



GR (EVP of Ops) dropped by our office today, being in town for some training our other local offices needed. He shook my hand, said, "I've heard a lot about you."

I didn't think much of it until my colleague (yes, the same one) finally told me why the CNHK MD had been talking about me to GR. But she didn't say what he'd talked about.

Bah! I stand by my previous opinion: Buncha fishwives!

=|

Good holiday. All I did was sit around and watch videos, and drink (instant) coffee.

Watching Hum Tum and KKHH for the umpteenth time, I figured if there's one thing that'd make me wanna marry (a guy) and hold a wedding - while simultaneously putting me off those things - it'd've to be Bollywood.

And the reason I watch Bollywood - besides beautiful people, beautiful clothes, beautiful songs, and WTF-dance sequences - is prolly the same one that makes Twilight so popular. (I'm guessing, because I've never read the series nor watched the movie - all I did was read why it might be so popular, and that rang really true for me during my pre-teen and adolescent years.)

Best find of the day:

I love Ms. Cho's tats! Have been thinking of visiting Alex again.

Hmm ...

Pole! From 16:30 to 19:45! How totally awesome is that? (Granted, I might not be able to climb outta bed tomorrow, and/or walk like I'm a decrepit centenarian - still ...)

I really wish I could Felix when I grow up ... even though I quite doubt she's entirely human ...

If she's gonna be doing Zumanity in Vegas, I want a front row seat!



Felix has set the bar pretty damn high ...

Sarah McLachlan - 'Ice Cream'

Album: Mirrorball



This song's been in my head lately. I think it began with rewatching a bit of Better Than Chocolate - by accident, I might add - which, of course, was named for the song. That was almost immediately followed by finding myself listening to SY sing it at her wedding dinner.

She apparently loved this song, so she not only sang it at the wedding dinner to her husband, she had her bridesmaids put it as a 'task' in the 'traditional' list of usually-embarrassing stunts the groom and his entourage of 'brothers' had to pull to be allowed into the bride's home.

That struck me as ... ironic - because of something'd told me.



Finished re-reading A Zen Romance ... for the Goddess-knows-how-many-times since 1999. I find that it calms me down, and helps me deal with change and moving - a bit like This Place Has No Atmosphere which, alas, I'd outgrown (a little).