The Mountain Goats - 'Love Love Love'

Album: The Sunset Tree

This is my one and only achievement in an otherwise completely unproductive day:



I won spectactularly!

And my current track record stands at:

Jithra [...]: You won. Final Score: 0 to 60
Blake [...]: You won. Final Score: 9 to 55
Cheryl [...]: You won. Final Score: 16 to 48
ChihLeng [...]: You won. Final Score: 13 to 51
ChihLeng [...]: You won. Final Score: 46 to 18
Jithra [...]: You won. Final Score: 54 to 10
Keith [...]: You won. Final Score: 45 to 19
Hannah [...]: You won. Final Score: 5 to 59
Rachel [...]: You won. Final Score: 57 to 7
Bana [...]: You won. Final Score: 16 to 48
Louise [...]: You won. Final Score: 8 to 56

Whoever Cheryl is, she's one helluva player, the best I've come across so far, even if the score doesn't reflect that. I stayed up till 2 AM this morning, playing with her. Gave me quite a challenge.

I like.

=)

Catatonia - 'Mulder And Scully'

Album: International Velvet

Heard this song in my head in the middle of the work-day. Cause: Obviously not work-related.

:::

Finally saw her the first time in - I don't know - maybe four years. She still looks as she did back then, but she couldn't be more different than the girl in the first two years of our friendship.

She's like an Earth Mother, forever my idol and superstar.

"All you need is a dream." Wise words from a wise woman-child.

Maybe that could be my motto from now on.

Panic! At The Disco - 'But It's Better If You Do'

Album: A Fever You Can't Sweat Out

Just a quick note in-between my waiting for my opponents to make their moves: I'm fucking (re-)addicted to the boardgame that's named for a certain overly-suspicious husband (or maybe not - I don't know).

That, and Scrabulous.

So if you're reading this, and you're on the Facebook (I mean, really, who isn't?), please add the apps and invite me to a game (or two dozens). If I'm able to beat you at one, then you'll prolly be able to rout me in the other (I've never played Scrabbles until today - pretty odd for an English major - and I suck like your best vacuum at it).

Gah! I can't get outta the games! I keep clicking on the "Start a random game" because ... gawd forbid anybody should take longer than a minute to make their next move ... =|

Cassie - 'Just One Night'

Album: Cassie

Such a headache tonight. Focus switched to a more trivial (yet no less stressful) item: Saturday, party, no costume, pressure to put on "scarlet lipstick" because "it'll look great with your complexion".

I mean, I figure I look scarier if I went as ... my regular ol' self, sans make-up and hair-care. Also, I really don't wanna go as The Fugliest Blind Drag Queen In The World ...

To all those so-called friends who, in reply to my request for costume suggestions ("something that's completely not me"), answered, "Angel": Thanks for nothin'!

=/

John Wesley Harding - 'I'm Wrong About Everything'

Album: High Fidelity OST

Been having strange dreams lately. Although they aren't really nightmarish or distressing, I know they're born of the anxiety I'm trying to ignore and not let get to me.

Stress is not having enough time and energy to complete everything, because I don't know how to prioritize. In addition to putting together an application, I owe Christine a topic (due tomorrow, before she goes on sabbatical; with the five-hour difference, I'm really not gonna make it), and have Jess's manuscript to edit.

All by this week.

And Wednesday through Friday (and prolly Saturday as well) will be taken up by dance (pole, belly, and exotic).



- No.

I'll smile and make it.

Because I must.

Jay Gordon - 'Slept So Long'

Album: Queen of the Damned OST

Woke up at 13:00 plus today - a first (and personal triumph).

Am I selfish ... or just human? Maybe a horribly selfish human.

Wondering (for the umpteenth time) whether my life fucks up or I do - or is that just the way things are for me? My heart tells me no, my mind tells me I know better; for once they're in accord.

Yet I still choose to ignore them.

'S okay; will only look stupid, and I deserve it - and everything else I have coming.






What the song says.

Jessie Mae Hemphill - 'Standing in My Doorway Crying'

Album: Mali to Memphis

1. Sent in application for the Graduate Award (which I prolly have a snowball's chance in hell of winning), and will be sending in for the Elaine Geering Scholarship in Literature (ditto).
   
   
2. Begun the long, drawn-out, and tedious process of gathering the necessary for a visa application.
   
   
3. Gave up three vials of blood to my doc.
   
   
4. Realized that I'm no longer as apprehensive towards needles as I was prior to my modifications.
   
   
5. Desmond declared that my baby is getting better, but warned I should not take it for granted ...
   
   
6. And must continue abstaining from alcohol for the next four weeks. =(
   
   
7. Started planning on the next mod: Must be dermal anchor(s)!

Ali Akbar Khan - 'Two Lovers (Mand)'

Album: Garden of Dreams

Most. Aggravating. Day.

(Even if I did purchase two of Marjane Satrapi's books for just SGD 5 each - Chicken with Plums, and Embroideries - as well as Norwegian Wood.)

One of my daily horoscopes did advise to take care when it comes to details, otherwise I'd feel I have an unproductive day. Well, it fucking did come true - and it's not a self-fulfilling prophesy. I thought it referred to work; it bloody wasn't.

And, just now, I realized I'd fucked up - for the second time.

I want to just run away.

Ciara - 'Get Up'

Album: Ciara: The Evolution

Not sure why, but I woke up hearing 30 Seconds To Mars' 'Attack' this morning; especially:

Run away, run away, I'll attack
Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
I'll attack, I'll attack, I will attack ...

Still unable to get upside down properly on the pole tonight, and various attempts had led to bruised ribs and hips - but am getting closer.

Ought to email Christine chosen topic soon.

=(

Why can't I do it?

Daddy Yankee - 'Impacto'

Album: El Cartel

"Hey!" was what I should've yelled - at least once.

"Watch it, you fucking blind fucker ..." would've been a lovely complementary addition, but I just wasn't raise that way. (Didn't stop me from thinking that, though - plenty times.)

Maybe it's just one of those days, but nobody'd believe how many fucking blind fuckers walked into me in the course of a ten minutes walk.

And to add insult to injury, I got bloody scratched too.

I could murder me a good homicide.

Truth Hurts ft. Rakim - 'Addictive'

Album: Addictive [Single]

Today's flushing session's diagnosis: I'm healing "slower than [Desmond] thought", but the amount of pus has reduced to "only ten percent of the last session".

Well, if I'm not healing any more, then I'm taking up his idea of removing the surface bar and replacing it with dermal anchors. (Yesssss! Dermal anchors!)

But I still gotta lay off the booze and seafood for a bit ... and - not that it'll be any chance of it - dance. =(

Honestly, I think I'd sooner quit meat than dance.

And I'm red meat-dependent.

Shivaree - 'Good Night Moon'

Album: I Oughta Give You A Shot In The Head For Making Me Live In This Dump

Am not sure why I'm always apprehensive about starting the work week.

I'm procrastinating again.

Because I'm scared.






Why am I so scared of everything?

Lizzie West - 'Chariots Rise'

Album: Lizzie West [EP]

I don't understand the lyrics; they seem a little disjunct. Like:

I took the notes of past excursions
And I read them through once more
Only to find them all diversions
From the one true love in store

The chariots rise
Up high in the sky
What a fool am I
To fall so in love
What a wonderful dream
It seems to be
'Cause I love him

So one's a fool to fall "so in love", even if it's with "the one true love in store"?

I'm perplexed: What am I not getting here?

Lizzie West - 'Chariots Rise'

Album: Lizzie West [EP]

Guess it helps to read back on past entries, so you can get a sense of what you want(ed) and where you stand now.

A lot seems to have changed since July.

I seem to have changed since.

Do I like who (or what) I am now? I don't know.

I don't even know who (or what) I am now.

Never mind what (or who) I want.