K's Choice - '20,000 Seconds'

Album: Cocoon Crash

And so the real waiting ... begins.

Ornob - 'Shey Je Boshe Ache'

Just gotta remember: I can and will do this, get through this.

Determination.



... Or stubbornness?

Tanya Chua - 'It's Your Chance'

Album: Chicken Rice War OST

Took stock of stuff today: I've been slacking for too long.

It's time I quit complaining about not having enough time. As Wil'd suggested: "... time cannot be made [...] time can however be stretched, molded, twisted, and compressed."

And, most importantly, time is relative.

I'm (re)directing my focus now on two things - studies, and dance. Everything else will have to be secondary, or even tertiary.

Now it's your chance to do what you wanna do
There's no time to waste
The day is still young, the world waits for no one
What are you waiting for?

What, indeed.

Aqualung - 'Brighter Than Sunshine'

Album: Still Life

It's been a long day.

So glad my after-hours are so much nicer than my office ones ... even if they were so much fewer.

=)

Hooverphonic - 'Mad About You'

Album: A Lot Like Love OST

My first pole dancing class overshadowed the fact that we've graduated from three modules of exotic dance yesterday! That's about five choreographies (two chair-work, one lap dance, and one floor-work).

If I didn't so suck at dancing (and am prettier/have a better figure yadda yadda yadda), I'd like to do that as a part time job or something.

Guess I best focus on pole dancing now.

Would be nice to live in a studio apartment that's also a dance studio: French windows. Mirrors. Barre.

Pole.

Nine Inch Nails - 'Closer'

Album: The Downward Spiral

So ...

I finally succumbed to peer pressure this evening, promised Hege, Jit, and Rachel I'd go register at Facebook. =| Can't believe I'd still be under peer pressure at my age, but go figure.

Pole dancing is Fucking. Awesome. I've got bruises on my legs like I were in an abusive relationship.

... Well, even if I were, I Fucking. Love. It. (I'm a masochist that way.) I love the pole - prolly the only phallic object I'd love from now on.

Can't wait for next Saturday.



(I want to dance to 'Closer' right now!)

चित्र ft. उस्ताद सुलतान अली खान - 'पिया बसंती रे'

Album: पिया बसंती

Was talking to Saket earlier this evening; a strange conversational topic (for me), I'd think - marriage and family.

His is an arranged one, and he talked about learning to accept the marriage, his wife, and the one-eighty change to his lifestyle after marriage.

He told me something to the effect of: "If you are willing to accept someone, to stay with someone, nobody can stop the both of you."



I think this is something worth thinking about.

eels - 'Love of the Loveless'

Album: Queer as Folk: The Fourth Season OST

All around you people walking
Empty hearts and voices talking
Looking for and finding
Nothing

I think I might be turning nocturnal ...

Frou Frou - 'It's Good To Be In Love'

Album: Details

This morning, again, I heard Of Montreal's "... it's such a burden to carry round / the vestiges of dead dreams ..." before I even turned on my mp3 player.

Then, in middle of the afternoon, in buried under a pile of printouts, receipts, invoices, and spreadsheets, I heard the first eight beats of this song even though no music is allowed in the office.

And after I knocked off, I couldn't stop listening to this song.

If you googled for the lyrics, you'll find that, contrary to what the track title might suggest, it's really a sad, sad song.

Maybe I should stop analyzing my state of mind by the songs that pop into my head - seemingly at random.



But they don't seem random mostly - if at all.

30 Seconds To Mars - 'Attack'

Album: A Beautiful Lie

Still waiting to be retrenched.

No matter how much I complain about my job, I still need it. At least till the end of this year. I need the money, unfortunately.

I wish something nice would happen to me.

R.E.M. - 'At My Most Beautiful'

Album: Up

I saw you today; you made my heart jump.

That means it still works, and I'm still alive.

Coheed & Cambria - 'An End To A Beginning'

In the bus this morning, I thought my wrists look much smaller than I remembered, but when I grasped one with my hand, it felt exactly as it always had.

In the bus this evening, I thought how much I'd like to have someone who'd always be on my side, when I've been hurt, and stand up for me. Then I realized nobody's ever deliberately hurt me; if I hurt, it's all in my mind, all my doing. Always has been.

But to be able to feel pain is to be alive, right?

X Japan - 'Endless Rain'

Album: Ballad Collection

In my comfort zone in this thunderstormy night.

I'm home, but scared.

K's Choice - 'Not An Addict'

Album: Paradise in Me

Downtime.

Tonight's a very bad night, this dark moon night.

Milk offering tomorrow.



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