Album: The Downward Spiral
So ...
I finally succumbed to peer pressure this evening, promised Hege, Jit, and Rachel I'd go register at Facebook. =| Can't believe I'd still be under peer pressure at my age, but go figure.
Pole dancing is Fucking. Awesome. I've got bruises on my legs like I were in an abusive relationship.
... Well, even if I were, I Fucking. Love. It. (I'm a masochist that way.) I love the pole - prolly the only phallic object I'd love from now on.
Can't wait for next Saturday.
(I want to dance to 'Closer' right now!)
Saturday, August 18, 2007
चित्र ft. उस्ताद सुलतान अली खान - 'पिया बसंती रे'
Album: पिया बसंती
Was talking to Saket earlier this evening; a strange conversational topic (for me), I'd think - marriage and family.
His is an arranged one, and he talked about learning to accept the marriage, his wife, and the one-eighty change to his lifestyle after marriage.
He told me something to the effect of: "If you are willing to accept someone, to stay with someone, nobody can stop the both of you."
I think this is something worth thinking about.
Was talking to Saket earlier this evening; a strange conversational topic (for me), I'd think - marriage and family.
His is an arranged one, and he talked about learning to accept the marriage, his wife, and the one-eighty change to his lifestyle after marriage.
He told me something to the effect of: "If you are willing to accept someone, to stay with someone, nobody can stop the both of you."
I think this is something worth thinking about.
Friday, August 17, 2007
eels - 'Love of the Loveless'
Album: Queer as Folk: The Fourth Season OST
I think I might be turning nocturnal ...
All around you people walking
Empty hearts and voices talking
Looking for and finding
Nothing
I think I might be turning nocturnal ...
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Frou Frou - 'It's Good To Be In Love'
Album: Details
This morning, again, I heard Of Montreal's "... it's such a burden to carry round / the vestiges of dead dreams ..." before I even turned on my mp3 player.
Then, in middle of the afternoon, in buried under a pile of printouts, receipts, invoices, and spreadsheets, I heard the first eight beats of this song even though no music is allowed in the office.
And after I knocked off, I couldn't stop listening to this song.
If you googled for the lyrics, you'll find that, contrary to what the track title might suggest, it's really a sad, sad song.
Maybe I should stop analyzing my state of mind by the songs that pop into my head - seemingly at random.
But they don't seem random mostly - if at all.
This morning, again, I heard Of Montreal's "... it's such a burden to carry round / the vestiges of dead dreams ..." before I even turned on my mp3 player.
Then, in middle of the afternoon, in buried under a pile of printouts, receipts, invoices, and spreadsheets, I heard the first eight beats of this song even though no music is allowed in the office.
And after I knocked off, I couldn't stop listening to this song.
If you googled for the lyrics, you'll find that, contrary to what the track title might suggest, it's really a sad, sad song.
Maybe I should stop analyzing my state of mind by the songs that pop into my head - seemingly at random.
But they don't seem random mostly - if at all.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
30 Seconds To Mars - 'Attack'
Album: A Beautiful Lie
Still waiting to be retrenched.
No matter how much I complain about my job, I still need it. At least till the end of this year. I need the money, unfortunately.
I wish something nice would happen to me.
Still waiting to be retrenched.
No matter how much I complain about my job, I still need it. At least till the end of this year. I need the money, unfortunately.
I wish something nice would happen to me.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
R.E.M. - 'At My Most Beautiful'
Album: Up
I saw you today; you made my heart jump.
That means it still works, and I'm still alive.
I saw you today; you made my heart jump.
That means it still works, and I'm still alive.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Coheed & Cambria - 'An End To A Beginning'
In the bus this morning, I thought my wrists look much smaller than I remembered, but when I grasped one with my hand, it felt exactly as it always had.
In the bus this evening, I thought how much I'd like to have someone who'd always be on my side, when I've been hurt, and stand up for me. Then I realized nobody's ever deliberately hurt me; if I hurt, it's all in my mind, all my doing. Always has been.
But to be able to feel pain is to be alive, right?
In the bus this evening, I thought how much I'd like to have someone who'd always be on my side, when I've been hurt, and stand up for me. Then I realized nobody's ever deliberately hurt me; if I hurt, it's all in my mind, all my doing. Always has been.
But to be able to feel pain is to be alive, right?
Sunday, August 12, 2007
X Japan - 'Endless Rain'
Album: Ballad Collection
In my comfort zone in this thunderstormy night.
I'm home, but scared.
In my comfort zone in this thunderstormy night.
I'm home, but scared.
K's Choice - 'Not An Addict'
Album: Paradise in Me
Downtime.
Tonight's a very bad night, this dark moon night.
Milk offering tomorrow.
शक्ति
Downtime.
Tonight's a very bad night, this dark moon night.
Milk offering tomorrow.
शक्ति
Tosca Tango Orchestra - 'Ballade 4, Part 1'
Album: Waking Life OST
I think ...
I feel like this piece of music at the moment.
I think ...
I feel like this piece of music at the moment.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Blog 27 - 'I Still Don't Know Ya'
Album: LOL
There are so many times I wish I could shed my body, because it doesn't feel like mine, because it traps me and weighs me down.
Without it, I feel I can run forever and never be out of breath, dance away into infinity ...
Sometimes, I wish I could dance and dance and dance ... until I break this clay vessel that imprisons me and slip away; free, at last.
There are so many times I wish I could shed my body, because it doesn't feel like mine, because it traps me and weighs me down.
Without it, I feel I can run forever and never be out of breath, dance away into infinity ...
Sometimes, I wish I could dance and dance and dance ... until I break this clay vessel that imprisons me and slip away; free, at last.
Big Mountain - 'Baby I Love Your Way'
Album: Reality Bites OST
Watched Reality Bites (after Pyaar Ke Side Effects) today. It's still relevant, still makes sense today; in fact, it makes more sense to me now than when I first watched it (in my early teens).
Never really thought about who I am, what my identity is. I'm just ... me, I guess ... you know? And whoever that is - I don't know.
Need a long cuddle; need a good friend ...
=(
Watched Reality Bites (after Pyaar Ke Side Effects) today. It's still relevant, still makes sense today; in fact, it makes more sense to me now than when I first watched it (in my early teens).
Never really thought about who I am, what my identity is. I'm just ... me, I guess ... you know? And whoever that is - I don't know.
Need a long cuddle; need a good friend ...
=(
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
X Japan - 'Say Anything'
Album: Ballad Collection
This is part of one of the horoscopes I read this morning, and I wondered if living means staying put and getting hurt, not running away anymore.
But running away had always hurt as well ...
Maybe a broken heart's like a slipped disc: It'll recur (maybe more and more frequently so), and even the slightest exertion would cause pain.
Or perhaps it's possible to be trapped beneath the dusty debris of a heart broken in another life.
And if you couldn't free yourself in time, and weren't found and rescued before the fresh air runs out, then, I guess, you will only die.
You will be very vulnerable emotionally, therefore stay away from situation where you are likely to get hurt.
This is part of one of the horoscopes I read this morning, and I wondered if living means staying put and getting hurt, not running away anymore.
But running away had always hurt as well ...
Maybe a broken heart's like a slipped disc: It'll recur (maybe more and more frequently so), and even the slightest exertion would cause pain.
Or perhaps it's possible to be trapped beneath the dusty debris of a heart broken in another life.
And if you couldn't free yourself in time, and weren't found and rescued before the fresh air runs out, then, I guess, you will only die.
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
INXS ft. Sona - 'Afterglow' (Fusion)
Album: V Channel Blast 2007
Another long day.
Good news: Christine, Geoff, and Peter approved (unofficially). Bad news: Midway through the morning, I seemed to have tripped and entangled myself in knots - and this is just the beginning.
Kai later reiterated what the numerologist kinda said: You created the knots in your mind ... Yourself.
Didn't make it to Beavers for pole dancing ... =(
Not quite sure why - nor understand how - I can't be in a good mood if you aren't.
Another long day.
Good news: Christine, Geoff, and Peter approved (unofficially). Bad news: Midway through the morning, I seemed to have tripped and entangled myself in knots - and this is just the beginning.
Kai later reiterated what the numerologist kinda said: You created the knots in your mind ... Yourself.
Didn't make it to Beavers for pole dancing ... =(
Not quite sure why - nor understand how - I can't be in a good mood if you aren't.
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