Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Aqualung - 'Brighter Than Sunshine'

Album: Still Life

It's been a long day.

So glad my after-hours are so much nicer than my office ones ... even if they were so much fewer.

=)

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Hooverphonic - 'Mad About You'

Album: A Lot Like Love OST

My first pole dancing class overshadowed the fact that we've graduated from three modules of exotic dance yesterday! That's about five choreographies (two chair-work, one lap dance, and one floor-work).

If I didn't so suck at dancing (and am prettier/have a better figure yadda yadda yadda), I'd like to do that as a part time job or something.

Guess I best focus on pole dancing now.

Would be nice to live in a studio apartment that's also a dance studio: French windows. Mirrors. Barre.

Pole.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Nine Inch Nails - 'Closer'

Album: The Downward Spiral

So ...

I finally succumbed to peer pressure this evening, promised Hege, Jit, and Rachel I'd go register at Facebook. =| Can't believe I'd still be under peer pressure at my age, but go figure.

Pole dancing is Fucking. Awesome. I've got bruises on my legs like I were in an abusive relationship.

... Well, even if I were, I Fucking. Love. It. (I'm a masochist that way.) I love the pole - prolly the only phallic object I'd love from now on.

Can't wait for next Saturday.



(I want to dance to 'Closer' right now!)

चित्र ft. उस्ताद सुलतान अली खान - 'पिया बसंती रे'

Album: पिया बसंती

Was talking to Saket earlier this evening; a strange conversational topic (for me), I'd think - marriage and family.

His is an arranged one, and he talked about learning to accept the marriage, his wife, and the one-eighty change to his lifestyle after marriage.

He told me something to the effect of: "If you are willing to accept someone, to stay with someone, nobody can stop the both of you."



I think this is something worth thinking about.

Friday, August 17, 2007

eels - 'Love of the Loveless'

Album: Queer as Folk: The Fourth Season OST

All around you people walking
Empty hearts and voices talking
Looking for and finding
Nothing



I think I might be turning nocturnal ...

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Frou Frou - 'It's Good To Be In Love'

Album: Details

This morning, again, I heard Of Montreal's "... it's such a burden to carry round / the vestiges of dead dreams ..." before I even turned on my mp3 player.

Then, in middle of the afternoon, in buried under a pile of printouts, receipts, invoices, and spreadsheets, I heard the first eight beats of this song even though no music is allowed in the office.

And after I knocked off, I couldn't stop listening to this song.

If you googled for the lyrics, you'll find that, contrary to what the track title might suggest, it's really a sad, sad song.

Maybe I should stop analyzing my state of mind by the songs that pop into my head - seemingly at random.



But they don't seem random mostly - if at all.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

30 Seconds To Mars - 'Attack'

Album: A Beautiful Lie

Still waiting to be retrenched.

No matter how much I complain about my job, I still need it. At least till the end of this year. I need the money, unfortunately.

I wish something nice would happen to me.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

R.E.M. - 'At My Most Beautiful'

Album: Up

I saw you today; you made my heart jump.

That means it still works, and I'm still alive.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Coheed & Cambria - 'An End To A Beginning'

In the bus this morning, I thought my wrists look much smaller than I remembered, but when I grasped one with my hand, it felt exactly as it always had.

In the bus this evening, I thought how much I'd like to have someone who'd always be on my side, when I've been hurt, and stand up for me. Then I realized nobody's ever deliberately hurt me; if I hurt, it's all in my mind, all my doing. Always has been.

But to be able to feel pain is to be alive, right?

Sunday, August 12, 2007

X Japan - 'Endless Rain'

Album: Ballad Collection

In my comfort zone in this thunderstormy night.

I'm home, but scared.

K's Choice - 'Not An Addict'

Album: Paradise in Me

Downtime.

Tonight's a very bad night, this dark moon night.

Milk offering tomorrow.



शक्ति

Tosca Tango Orchestra - 'Ballade 4, Part 1'

Album: Waking Life OST

I think ...

I feel like this piece of music at the moment.

Friday, August 10, 2007

Blog 27 - 'I Still Don't Know Ya'

Album: LOL

There are so many times I wish I could shed my body, because it doesn't feel like mine, because it traps me and weighs me down.

Without it, I feel I can run forever and never be out of breath, dance away into infinity ...

Sometimes, I wish I could dance and dance and dance ... until I break this clay vessel that imprisons me and slip away; free, at last.

Big Mountain - 'Baby I Love Your Way'

Album: Reality Bites OST

Watched Reality Bites (after Pyaar Ke Side Effects) today. It's still relevant, still makes sense today; in fact, it makes more sense to me now than when I first watched it (in my early teens).

Never really thought about who I am, what my identity is. I'm just ... me, I guess ... you know? And whoever that is - I don't know.



Need a long cuddle; need a good friend ...

=(