Fisher - 'Missing'

Album: Uppers and Downers

The dream vacation of mine seems more and more like a memory.

Like it had taken place.

And I can remember most of the details like it happened yesterday - smells, colors, the air, tastes ...

Lullatone - 'Wake Up Wake Up'

Album: Little Songs About Raindrops

Office Manager's last day today.

Perhaps life will suck soon - too tired to bother or worry now ...

Later.

Echo & the Bunnymen - 'Lips Like Sugar'

Album: Echo & The Bunnymen

Every time I see something red and shiny, I get the urge to lick it.

Like, when we passed by a shiny red car, I told Office Manager I wanted to get down on my knees and lick it.

But now that I think about it, shiny red shoes look yummier.

Yuuuuummmmmyyyy.

Seaming To - 'Something Wicked This Way Comes'

Album: London Lounge

Promised myself, again, to another gathering that I realized only too late I won't be comfortable in.

I feel a vast intergalatical gap between me and them: is it because they're all married with children and I am not; or is it because -

The thing is, even if I'd been honest with them, would the gap be bridged?

Maybe it's time to live dangerously ...

Haruomi Hosono - 'Honey Moon'

Album: Crooning on Venus

Making playlists ... has become an obsession.

I can't believe the amount of music I have but haven't listened to!

Jamie Lidell ft. Jose Gonzales - 'Multiply (In A Minor Key)'

Album: Multiply Additions

There's this very, extremely, and utterly tedious task I've been given to do at work. So frustrated I feel like screaming and throttling someone, because I don't want to do it, but know I gotta.

I don't know why I can't seem to adjust to being an adult, having to work, and life in Singapore.

I really can't articulate exactly just how frustrated I am.

Angela Aki - 'Kiss Me Good-Bye'

Album: Kiss Me Good-Bye

Realized today I've been thinking about that ticket to Welly as a singular noun: as in one-way.

Morcheeba - 'Otherwise'

Album: Charango

Brian: You are all individuals!

Crowd: YES, YES, WE ARE ALL INDIVIDUALS!

Brian: You are all different!

Crowd: YES, WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT!

Lone Voice: I'm not.

Person next to him: SHH!

From Life of Brian

Know what I feel like sometimes? The Lone Voice.

Massive Attack - 'Karmacoma'

Album: Karmacoma (Single)

This morning's logic:

Sun in Welly - made me happy; sun in Thailand - a little irritating, but it didn't make me too unhappy; sun in Singapore - makes my life a fucking wretched misery.

Conclusion: it's not the sun, it's Singapore.

Martina Topley-Bird - 'Ilya'

Album: Quixotic

Walking home, I thought:

Give me one day to arrange for a ticket and accomodations, then I'll fly off to Welly. I suppose I could bunk with a friend, or there's this pretty nice upmarket backpackers' just next to the City Library. I'll spend my day sitting in on lectures in Kelburn, or in the school library, or the City Library; if the weather's good, take a walk along the harbor and down Oriental Bay. Maybe I'll even take the cable car up to Kelburn or the Botanic Garden, just for the hell of it.

Dream vacation for me, that.

Tricky - 'Aftermath'

Album: Maxinquaye

Sometimes, you'd have experienced or done something before you realized what it's called or what it means.

Like, I had a crush before I even knew what a crush was.

Just sayin'; no moral or analogy or point to make here.

Brigid Boden - 'As Tears Go By'

Album: Chill Out In Paris, Vol. 2

I know I still dream.

But I'm not sure if I still have dreams.

Gipsy Kings - 'Marina Marina Marina'

The question every single L Word obsessed fangirl asks herself and her fellow obsessed fan buddies: Which L Word character(s) do you want to sleep with?

I'm going with Marina (then Shane - of course Shane).

Walking Doggie, I'd thought: If Marina weren't so skinny, she'd be the 100% Perfect Woman I want to meet on a beautiful April morning.

Or ugly August evening.

Or whenever - even when the world is dissolving from a nuclear meltdown.

Marina, Marina, Marina
Contigo me quiero casar

Astrud Gilberto - 'Who Needs Forever' (Thievery Corporation remix)

Album: Versions

There be no classes for the next two weeks - Hege's headed for L.A. for some salsa convention or something.

Ay me! sad hours seem long ... for I will not be having that which, having, makes them short.

What on earth will I have to look forward to the next two weeks?

I have only the memory of a lapdance given today by Hege.

Heh!

Damien - 'Habanos Days' (Thievery Corporation remix)

Album: Versions

Oo-er. We both missed our drinks, don't we?

I am happy-tippsy; hope you are too.

It is a pretty nice place, is it not? Even if it's no Matterhorn.

Happy birthday, sweets - I hope you had as good a time as I did, Chain of Fools or no.

=)

Ustad Sultan Khan - 'Tarana' (Thievery Corporation remix)

Album: Versions

History might've just repeated itself today ... I don't know.

Feel like I'm teetering, a little, a lot off-center - but then this entire day has been surreal.

Am so tired, so deeply and utterly tired, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.

Feel like crying but I can't.

Bebel Gilberto - 'Cada Beijo' (Thievery Corporation remix)

Album: Versions

But I think I'm ready to be bitten.

It's time to fall in love ...

Again.

Isabelle Antena - 'Nothing To Lose' (Thievery Corporation remix)

Album: Versions

I would cling to unhappiness because it was a known, familiar state. When I was happier, it was because I knew I was on my way back to misery. I've never been convinced that happiness is the object of the game. I'm wary of happiness.

"A brighter life for Hugh Laurie", thisislondon.co.uk from the Evening Standard, 2002-06-13.

Holly Golightly & The Brokeoffs - 'Devil Do'

Album: You Can't Buy A Gun When You're Crying

Saw a guy with what looked to me like an unusual customized piece of jewelry for a combination rook-daith-tragus piercing.

Upon closer inspection, I realized it was not, in fact, a unique piece of accessory, but a bluetooth headset.



I think I need help ...

Gui Boratto - 'Beautiful Life'

Album: Chromophobia

What is so not sexy: men jogging with with their man-titties ... bouncing flopping freely. (Dudes, seriously, get a sports-bra! Get a sports-bra! Your nipples will thank you! Mine inverted themselves after seeing you - two days in a row!)

What is so wicked-crazy-sexy: Christina piercings. I vant!

Yoko Ono ft. Shitake Monkey - 'O'Oh'

Album: Yes I'm A Witch

My legs spread as wide as the ligaments would allow (and they were pretty tight), elbows hovering milimeters from the floor, Hege materialized behind me, placed her hands on my back, and rested her weight on me.

My elbows touched down; I whimpered. She said, "Get used to it - I'll be here for awhile."

Three minutes later, my legs were trembling and I was half-groaning, half-whimpering, she said, "Sounds like you're enjoying it. I'm getting comfortable."

*>_<*

Justin Timberlake - 'Sexy Back'

Album: FutureSex/LoveSounds

Quote of the day, courtesy, once again, of Hege (heh heh heh!):

You must molest the person - touch, I mean touch; you must touch the person ... I'm Norwegian; my English not good.

One Shot ft. Freeman - 'Dancefloor Furie'

Album: Taxi 2 OST

Every excursion on Singapore's efficient public transport system is an exercise in patience and tolerance.

Today's method to keep from having a breakdown was to daydream about all the piercings I can have before I'm forced to concentrate only on ink. I counted five (excluding both nipples, which I'm saving as a 'last resort', but including re-piercing the navel), in alphabetical order:

• madison
• nape
• navel
• nostril (both sides, for a nasallang!)
• septum

What I'd like but will prove impossible: a vertical labret and a Medusa (philtrum). =(

Esthero - 'I Drive Alone'

Album: The L Word Season 3 OST

I realize today, coming back here, I've lost a lot of control over my life, over myself.

I hate that; I really do.

Daughter Darling - 'Broken Bridge'

Album: Sweet Shadows

It's an old situation: I tend to connect deeply - almost merge, if that was possible - for a short overwhelmingly intense period, before feeling trapped and stifled, and the need to disconnect immediately and completely.

That hasn't happened in a long time - the urge to disconnect, I mean - but it now seems to be a habit, not a reflex or reaction.

Ani DiFranco - 'Joyful Girl' (Peace And Love Mix)

Album: The Jackal OST

In the shower, I thought: it's okay if I choose to deal with it by bringing it to the surface, even if only temporarily; what matters the most is that I do it in a responsible, clear-headed, and clean manner.

Perhaps like the way dance helps me control the physical, bod-mods will help me manage the emotional.

Pledge Drive - 'Sí Beag, Sí Mór'

Album: I Gave At The Office

An eventful day - by my standards, at least - with a realization that my newest escape route is via Stege, and the comforting knowledge that Alvina is there.

I can only hope every day is like today.

One Shot - 'Millenaire'

Album: Taxi 2 OST

Why do I never seem to have enough time for any one thing?

Somtimes, I wish I don't want more, don't want better; sometimes, I wish I knew my limits.

But, mostly, I wish I didn't.

Rebekah del Rio - 'Llorando'

Album: Mulholland Drive OST

When P and I decided we'd be best friends, we were eight. But we had to take a test which led to her transferring to a SAP school.

Those few months were the only time in my entire life I had a best friend; since then, I've never believed in best friends.

But I believe I need one now.

Johann Pachelbel - 'Canon & Gigue' (for 3 Violins & Continuo in D Major, T. 337 Canon)

Album: The Bells of St. Genevieve and Other Baroque Delights

S P E C V L V M. That's our project.

Not quite sure where we'll be going with it; but, hey, anywhere but here, right?



For the lifejacket: gratias tibi ago, malum-cheeked fishy bitch Muffin.

=)

D*Note - 'Iniquity Worker'

Album: Criminal Justice

Zenzi asked what font size is my 'B' (for boredom) today; I replied, "Forty."

Hers, she said, was sixty.

Still, I'm feeling mighty unmotivated.

Midnite - 'Hieroglyphics'

Album: Ras Mek Peace

09 f9 11 02 9d 74 e3 5b d8 41 56 c5 63 56 88 c0

Doing my (second) bit - if it were any use at all ...

Conclusion of the day (no relation to the above): there's always gotta be conflict; otherwise, 'civilization', as we know it, will collapse - empires already had.

Silk - 'Freak Me'

Album: Lose Control

I spent the day gorging on the aural equivalent of N.Y. cheesecake.

Yikes.

Is my brain mush yet? Is it dripping out from my ears? I don't know. I'm still gorging myself on the cheese ...

Dubstar - 'Stars'

Album: Disgraceful

Said I to my Dad: "What's that star called? It's particularly bright. Is it a planet?"

Replied Dad: "It could be a satellite. You never know these days ..."

No wonder my wishes don't come true. You mean I've been wishing on a bloody satellite all this while?!

Fuck.