Miwa Gemini - 'Crazy Over You'

Album: This Is How I Found You



So today it occurred to me I severely lack self-discipline - that's the reason I let myself get so morbidly morose during each lunar cycle. Self-indulgent emotional masturbation.

And it's been getting worse too, the downtime, in addition to stretching for longer and longer periods.

I think I crave discipline as much as I deplore (and reject) it. Heaven forbid anyone should try to discipline me ... Not that many hadn't already tried.

Will be without my paperweight in the next long week.

=(

Scarlet - 'Independent Love Song'

Album: Independent Love Song (single)



Dreamed last night I couldn't find my bag and was rushing around looking for it (what does it mean?). Was a restless sleep and I woke up so tired I almost nodded off while I waited for pole prac.

In the end, I didn't do my choreo during exotic (too shy to), but am still very happy I came up with one.

Pole prac was good - I got a (45mm) pole all to myself and I managed the brass monkey (1 time), the non-spastic iguana (2 times, at least), and the thigh hold (3 times!). My right shoulder hurts so much now from repeated attempts at the shoulder mount-chopper-serpent combo.

I'll prolly crash spectacularly tomorrow.

Miwa Gemini - 'Crazy Over You'

Album: This Is How I Found You



The boss poked me today. On the arm. With a single index finger. He's very careful to not touch me, but when he does, he does it in strangely juvenile ways.

I think my dad has a similar sense of humor to the boss. Talking about the insurance premium check I was to bank into my account today, I said, "What's the rush? It says here the check is valid for the next six months!"

"Yeah," my dad said, "but it's AIA - who knows when they'll collapse [here]?" then continued after I did a verbal eye-roll: "It's not a large amount, but it's not a small sum either! You know how many roast ducks you can buy with SGD 13,000?!"

Roast ducks?! =|

(As it turned out, we had roast duck for dinner tonight.)

More on food: I've had soups from Souperlicious these couple of days for lunch - pretty nummy fare for rainy days.



(I'm going crazy over this song, can you tell?)

Watching Shiba Inu Puppy Cam

Stream: Shiba Inu Puppy Cam

Apropos of nothing, the boss commented, as I turned to leave his office, "You're getting fat - why do you eat so much?"

I turned back to face him, exasperated: "What has that got to do with anything?" (So much like him to throw curveballs like that.)

He smiled, twinkled, and waved me away. Much later, he came out and insisted he was joking when he called me fat, said something about what business he had calling me fat when he is ... well.

But this is one thing I love about my boss (and hope to emulate). Narrating an anecdote once, he'd said, "... my being fat doesn't make you any thinner ..."

It's okay for the pot to call the kettle black - someone remind me again why it isn't okay in the first place, please.

My inner fat girl (once a fat girl, always a fat girl, no matter how much weight you lose on the outside) idolizes him.

Miwa Gemini - 'Crazy Over You'

Album: This Is How I Found You



The achey right side of my back I get, because yesterday's tricks were all about using the left side to hang on (horrendous bruising behind the left knee) while opening up and arching the right side, but I'm not sure whether my right shoulder/neck is achey because of the shoulder mount-chopper-serpet combo I attempted more than once (successfully!), or because of the fall I sustained from the pencil position (a couple of factors: 1) it was a 50mmm pole; 2) it was warm and my hands were sweaty).

Either way, I think this is one time I ache as badly as I look.

But I'm itching to get back on the pole, is what I'm feeling now.

Watching Shiba Inu Puppy Cam

Stream: Shiba Inu Puppy Cam

Today's tricks: Hanging Angel, Cupid, and Thigh (or, possible, Knee) Hold. They all gave me a very, very, very achey back - lotsa back arches. Sigh ...

And I'm so frustrated because I seem to have lost my Brass Monkey! =(

But my exotic choreography made some progress, so it's good.

I'm extremely exhausted though ...

Watching Shiba Inu Puppy Cam

Stream: Shiba Inu Puppy Cam

This evening I had four hands and two hair-dryers attack my hair. That was the first time in my life I had two people blow-dry my hair concurrently, and it was ... scary.

I think the people who have to blow-dry my hair don't like me. After one guy went to work on my neighbor's hair, the guy stuck with my hair kept at it. And kept at it. And kept at it.

After my neighbor had paid up and left the salon, he caught my eyeing my neighbor's departure and said, "You have a lot of hair."

Then when he was finally done with the blow-drying, he repeated, "You have a lot of hair."

Am still uncertain whether he was trying to explain why he took so long, or whether he was complaining ...

Watching Shiba Inu Puppy Cam

Stream: Shiba Inu Puppy Cam

I find myself being very stupid whenever I'm viewing the puppy cam ... like now.

Yes, I do realize I'm alternating among strange coo-ey, whiney, and growl-y sounds to match the puppies when I watch them fight.

Yes, I do realize I'm talking to them when I tell them to stop fighting, and when I ask, "Where's mommy?"

Yes, I do realize I'm talking to myself when I giggle and observe, "Heh ... Puppy butt!"

This got it down pat.

Okay, back to puppy cam!

Watching Shiba Inu Puppy Cam

Stream: Shiba Inu Puppy Cam

Uh ... Uh ...

I'll make it short 'cuz I gotta watch them puppies. (Snorglelicious puppies! They're so fat and fluffy! I vant!)

Heh heh ... OMG, Yellow can sleep through anything! Me too! (Well, almost anything, wink wink.)

Uh ... Puppy butts are more interesting than blogging.

But I have to say, while I'm vicariously happy about the new POTUS, I'm even more upset - truly depressed - about the Prop. 8.

Puppy Cam keeps blood pressure low.

Awwwwww, they're SHO CUTE! Widdle pwuppies all fat and snorgly, come to mama!

Kettel - 'Palles’s Popsong'

Album: Myam James



Have been neglecting my work, I'm afraid ... =(

But, boy, am I exhausted. Sleep has been less than restful lately - I've problems falling asleep and I keep waking up; dreams - if I even had any (I'm not sure) - are not scary though.

Sigh.

Lykke Li - 'Dance Dance Dance'

Album: Youth Novels



I told the boss today when I'm leaving. It's a relief, but I also feel quite sad. There's really a lot I could gleam from Mephisto, not (just) by his instructions, but also through ... osmosis, I guess. I think his ways are beginning to rub off a little on me.

Also, he's just about the only person who actually thinks I have potential - and not because he's trying to be encouraging or supportive. While it is stressful to have that sort of constant pressure, it's also a driving force for me. I want to make something of myself too - I just don't have the direction; and, thus without direction, I lose the drive. (Vicious cycle, that.)

=(

I find myself preferring new songs lately.

Ingrid Michaelson - 'Be OK'

Album: Be OK



... And it's November. Already.

Pole competition is this month, together with the workshops, and a pole mate's getting married.

So much happening, but there's the second biggest hurdle of all yet ... Sigh.

Lenka - 'The Show'

Album: The Show



Today's new spin: 'Moon goddess'; today's new trick: 'Superman'.

The Hallowe'en pole party was fun - and definitely a real workout.

Jessy's joining the the competition; I'm still thinking about it. Sigh. =/

The sound of you sleeping

I keep hearing the opening lines of Wir sind Helden's 'Die Zeit heilt alle Wunder' in my head tonight ... Wonder why.

Hallowe'en pole jam tomorrow - should I risk my wings?