Album: Set List (Live)
It always strikes me later; that's how retarded I am - the queen of delayed reactions and responses.
But if you tell me what you want, I'll make it happen.
I only need some time to realize that.
Monday, January 14, 2008
Sunday, January 13, 2008
The Killers - 'Read My Mind'
Album: Sam's Town
Today I figured out why I've been punishing my body the way I've been doing. It's not that I really want to punish my body - I just want to convince myself that this one year I've committed to spending in Singapore would be worth it.
And as long as I'm running from one activity to another, I can convince myself that, at the very least, I'm doing something ... instead of wasting a year here, when I could've been there studying, and with her.
You left without a kiss again - and without the conviction that I will get there. I will get there - and convince you.
Today I figured out why I've been punishing my body the way I've been doing. It's not that I really want to punish my body - I just want to convince myself that this one year I've committed to spending in Singapore would be worth it.
And as long as I'm running from one activity to another, I can convince myself that, at the very least, I'm doing something ... instead of wasting a year here, when I could've been there studying, and with her.
You left without a kiss again - and without the conviction that I will get there. I will get there - and convince you.
The Killers - 'Read My Mind'
Album: Sam's Town
So extremely tired, I was grouchy most of the day, especially after pole class.
Feel like I'm heading for a meltdown soon.
I know I've been punishing my body, but I can't stop.
So extremely tired, I was grouchy most of the day, especially after pole class.
Feel like I'm heading for a meltdown soon.
I know I've been punishing my body, but I can't stop.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
The Elected - 'Did Me Good'
Album: Sun, Sun, Sun
It occurred to me, as I was on my way home from rehearsal, that I was killing myself, with the punishing schedule I set for myself - and keep to.
Tomorrow'll be a long, long day.
I simultaneously crave sleep and dread it.
It occurred to me, as I was on my way home from rehearsal, that I was killing myself, with the punishing schedule I set for myself - and keep to.
Tomorrow'll be a long, long day.
I simultaneously crave sleep and dread it.
Friday, January 11, 2008
Oddway - 'All The Things That Matter'
Album: Away From The Everyday
Mephisto didn't talk much to me today, but somehow that left me even more nerve-wrecked. It's like having my dad in a bad mood, and you never know when he'd lash at you - even though Mephisto didn't seem to be in a bad mood.
So glad that my after-hours were great this evening: Dinner (Deli Moroccan), dessert (B Bakery), great company - and a priceless story that just gotta be saved for posterity!
;)
Mephisto didn't talk much to me today, but somehow that left me even more nerve-wrecked. It's like having my dad in a bad mood, and you never know when he'd lash at you - even though Mephisto didn't seem to be in a bad mood.
So glad that my after-hours were great this evening: Dinner (Deli Moroccan), dessert (B Bakery), great company - and a priceless story that just gotta be saved for posterity!
;)
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Jill Scott - 'I'm Not Afraid'
Album: Beautifully Human
So freaked out.
Had Wil chosen Japanese between my given choices of pasta and Japanese, I would've been dining in the same place as Mephisto and his dinner date tonight.
Still unsure if it were indeed him (never seen him in anything but his standard office outfit and his driving glasses), but if it weren't, then have I been so completely mind-fucked that I'm starting to get paranoid about seeing him everywhere?
Devil on my back ...
I must not be afraid.
=(
So freaked out.
Had Wil chosen Japanese between my given choices of pasta and Japanese, I would've been dining in the same place as Mephisto and his dinner date tonight.
Still unsure if it were indeed him (never seen him in anything but his standard office outfit and his driving glasses), but if it weren't, then have I been so completely mind-fucked that I'm starting to get paranoid about seeing him everywhere?
Devil on my back ...
I must not be afraid.
=(
Monday, January 07, 2008
Camera Obscura - 'Let's Get Out Of This Country'
Album: Let's Get Out Of This Country
Mephisto has this uncanny ... knack.
Today, commenting that I'd smiled more today than I had the past two work days, he said, "You looked like you'd rather be in Penang ..."
Yes, I would - with you there.
Mephisto has this uncanny ... knack.
Today, commenting that I'd smiled more today than I had the past two work days, he said, "You looked like you'd rather be in Penang ..."
Yes, I would - with you there.
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Eisley - 'One Day I Slowly Floated Away'
Album: Room Noises
Have been putting it off for a long time now; Rach urged me to get on with it last night (when we were both completely sober). So I made my list tonight.
An exercise in futility or not, I can only wait and see.
It's so difficult when you want two things at the same time, but are allowed only one. Which do you choose - the one your mind wants, or the one your heart desires?
Am (still) careering.
I don't want a career that is an office job; I want to be able to create.
Have been putting it off for a long time now; Rach urged me to get on with it last night (when we were both completely sober). So I made my list tonight.
An exercise in futility or not, I can only wait and see.
It's so difficult when you want two things at the same time, but are allowed only one. Which do you choose - the one your mind wants, or the one your heart desires?
Am (still) careering.
I don't want a career that is an office job; I want to be able to create.
Esthero - 'Thank Heaven 4 You'
Album: Wikked Lil' Grrrls
Went to have our measurements taken, then off to have a pre-dinner snack. After that, shopping (I bought a book and two pairs of jeans), dinner (Thai Express), coffee and dessert (Ricciotti), and drinks.
First drink, as usual, at the Crazy Elephant (Long Island); second one (12 year-old Glenfiddich, stiff) at the Highlander Bar. The third drink was red wine, courtesy of the table beside us at the Highlander. It was a bunch of financial advisors from Manulife and it made for a great evening getting to know new people.
Rach managed to get really high and tipsy, and I'm now sleepy.
Which is a good thing.
Went to have our measurements taken, then off to have a pre-dinner snack. After that, shopping (I bought a book and two pairs of jeans), dinner (Thai Express), coffee and dessert (Ricciotti), and drinks.
First drink, as usual, at the Crazy Elephant (Long Island); second one (12 year-old Glenfiddich, stiff) at the Highlander Bar. The third drink was red wine, courtesy of the table beside us at the Highlander. It was a bunch of financial advisors from Manulife and it made for a great evening getting to know new people.
Rach managed to get really high and tipsy, and I'm now sleepy.
Which is a good thing.
Saturday, January 05, 2008
Camera Obscura - 'Return To Send Her'
Album: Let's Get Out Of This Country
Mephisto remarked that he didn't think I smiled a lot - or enough. You hardly smile, said he. Smile. What - is it my aftershave? Do you want me to change it - something that smells like what your favorite boyfriend wore?
It was almost funny ...
Except it reminded me how much I wish I could smell you again.
Mephisto remarked that he didn't think I smiled a lot - or enough. You hardly smile, said he. Smile. What - is it my aftershave? Do you want me to change it - something that smells like what your favorite boyfriend wore?
It was almost funny ...
Except it reminded me how much I wish I could smell you again.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Bishop Allen - 'Busted Heart'
Album: Charm School
I feel Mephisto is slowly breaking my spirit.
And I'm feeling so cold lately ...
I feel Mephisto is slowly breaking my spirit.
And I'm feeling so cold lately ...
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Denison Witmer - 'Are You A Dreamer'
Album: Are You A Dreamer?
Feel stressed out by Mephisto and my first day. That man might drive me stark raving crazy soon; either that, or I'd be quitting in tears.
But when he wasn't talking to me or bugging me, I'd be thinking of you and missing you. Which was - is - all too frequently.
Which will definitely drive me stark raving crazy.
But I can't help it, no matter how silly or cheesy that seems.
Feel stressed out by Mephisto and my first day. That man might drive me stark raving crazy soon; either that, or I'd be quitting in tears.
But when he wasn't talking to me or bugging me, I'd be thinking of you and missing you. Which was - is - all too frequently.
Which will definitely drive me stark raving crazy.
But I can't help it, no matter how silly or cheesy that seems.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
The Killers - 'Read My Mind'
Album: Sam's Town
I never really gave up on
Breakin' out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around
Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?
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