Primitive Radio Gods - 'Standing Outside A Broken Phone Booth With Money In My Hand'

Album: Rocket

Am I alive or thoughts that drift away?
Does summer come for everyone?
Can humans do as prophets say?
And if I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days I lived awake
But half asleep?

Am not sure, but I think ... you've turned away and shut up tight.

You're right, of course - there are things about which you're never wrong.

You'd spoken; once, twice, so many times before. I'm the one who needs to learn to speak.

I'd thought that a picture bespeaks a thousand words and that action speaks louder; there are things about which I'm never right.



But I still can't keep from hoping ...

नज़िया हस्सन - 'आप जैसा कोई'

Album: क़ुरबानी OST (1981)

You.

I know, but I'm letting you think that I don't. Or, perhaps, you know that I know and are letting me think that you don't.

Which is it? Am I getting my second chance, or was my first chance never destroyed by my own doing in the first place?

Or had it been destroyed, and all I have now is wishful thinking on my part?

"आप जैसी कोई मेरी ज़िंदगी में आई ..."

श्रेय घोसल - 'सिलसिला ये चाहत का'

Album: देवदास OST (2002)

Walking home from the bus-stop, all of a sudden, inexplicably, I felt cocooned in the old fuzzy and warm sweater of happiness.

'कहे छेड़ मोहे' was the atmosphere in my universe that was sheltered by my deliciously red brolly; lip-synching to the song, my steps jaunty, I was only vaguely reminded of rainy nights in Welly.

In the midst of a lonely trek in the arid desert, the taste of unadulterated happiness is nectar.

Melissa Etheridge - 'Come To My Window'

Album: Yes I Am

Am setting off on my quest tomorrow, alone, to Corbenic. Will I fail by a gasp, like Peredyr Arueu Dur; or will I succeed, like the pious Galahad?

Does it matter that I'm not doing it for me?


(Will also get a consultation for the next tattoo ... if I'm not completely put off by the dodginess of the joint.)

Tricky - 'Hell Is Round The Corner'

Album: Tricky: A Ruff Guide

'Round the corner' means this Friday for some people.

My own hell is perhaps a little farther down the street.

Being in HR kinda sucks. I feel like I work for the Angel of Death - or Death. Death wields the scythe while I hold the basket into which heads roll.

Worse: everything is "highly confidential", meaning I can't tell anybody, and I just gotta.

I feel so alone and crummy ...

=(

Nellie McKay with k.d. lang - 'We Got It Right'

Album: Pretty Little Head

Affirmations.

Maybe I need to start doing those, like fifteen times a day. That's fifteen times per affirmation.

Wonder if I could be arsed to do that, and for how long I could be arsed to do it.

कुनाल गंजवाला - 'तू' (Version A)

Album: Mumbai Matinee

I no longer trust my intuition when it comes to people who attract me (on any level); not the least after Charles' ENGL 114 tutorial on which he touched on 'stalker mentality'.

Am such a prime candidate when it comes to stalker mentality ... =(

Tracy Chapman - 'Give Me One Reason'

Album: New Beginning

Are we all living like this? Two lives, the ideal outer life and the inner imaginative life where we keep our secrets?



Winterson, Jeanette. Sexing The Cherry. London: Vintage, 1990.

सुनिधि चौहान - 'जिस्म'

Album: वैसा भी होता है Part II

As Hege said: We've learned a full four-minute choreography!!

If I were prettier of face, and sexier of figure, I'd be working at the Mermaid (or, a classier joint down Vivian, as Chih'd recommended) for my tuition fees and living expenses.

I'd be back in Welly ...

Frankie Chan & Roel A. Garcia - 'First Love (Young Lover Blues #1)'

Album: 墮落天使 OST

I hate it when my horoscope dangles a tantalizing piece of hope in front of me and doesn't follow through.

Where's my meeting with the 100% Perfect Girl for me? Where's my fucking falling in love at first sight?

... Bloody cards. You're all of you blank! Duds!

=/

Bernadette Peters - 'Being Alive'

Album: Sondheim, Etc.: Bernadette Peters Live at Carnegie Hall

When I left England I thought I was running away. Running away from uncertainty and confusion but most of all running away from myself. I thought I might become someone else in time, grafted on to something better and stronger. And then I saw that the running away was a running towards. An effort to catch up with my fleet-footed self, living another life in a different way.



Winterson, Jeanette. Sexing The Cherry. London: Vintage, 1990.

कैलाश खेर - 'अल्लाह के बंधे'

Album: वैसा भी होता है Part II

Got this wood box puzzle on Sunday; measures about 4" X 2.5" X 1", and appears to have no visible openings or locking mechanism. There's something inside the box rattling it.

Trying to figure out how to open it, I thought about how the box was like my heart, and the unseen, unknown object in it, me.

When I finally manage to open it and get a glimpse of what is in there, I'll close it.

And give it to someone to puzzle over.

I hope that someone won't give up until the box is opened.

Shudder To Think with Nina Persson - 'Appalachian Lullaby'

Album: First Love, Last Rites

Don't know why, but it's getting harder and harder to wake these mornings.

A lot of things, I guess they're born psychosomatically.

I need ... something. Something. Nearly desperately.

And it's not just sleep.

सोनू निगम और श्रेया घोसल - 'धीरे जलना'

Album: पहेली OST (2005)

First thing I'd heard in my head this morning:

धीरे जलना धीरे जलना धीरे जलना
ज़िंदगी की लौ पे जलना
धीरे जलना धीरे जलना धीरे जलना
ज़िंदगी की लौ पे जलना
कांच का सपना गल ही ना जाए
सोच समझके आंच रखना
धीरे जलना धीरे जलना धीरे जलना
धीरे धीरे धीरे धीरे धीरे जलना
होना है जो होना है वोह
होने से रुकता नहीं
आसमान तो झुकता नहीं

(Burn slowly ...
  Burn in the flame of life
  Burn slowly ...
  Burn in the flame of life
  Your fragile dream might melt
  Think carefully before nursing the flame
  Burn slowly ...
  Slowly, slowly ... burn
  What has to happen, will happen
  It won't stop from happening
  just as the sky doesn't lower to the earth

Translation from BollyWHAT)