Tosca Tango Orchestra - 'Ballade 4, Part 1'

Album: Waking Life OST

I think ...

I feel like this piece of music at the moment.

Blog 27 - 'I Still Don't Know Ya'

Album: LOL

There are so many times I wish I could shed my body, because it doesn't feel like mine, because it traps me and weighs me down.

Without it, I feel I can run forever and never be out of breath, dance away into infinity ...

Sometimes, I wish I could dance and dance and dance ... until I break this clay vessel that imprisons me and slip away; free, at last.

Big Mountain - 'Baby I Love Your Way'

Album: Reality Bites OST

Watched Reality Bites (after Pyaar Ke Side Effects) today. It's still relevant, still makes sense today; in fact, it makes more sense to me now than when I first watched it (in my early teens).

Never really thought about who I am, what my identity is. I'm just ... me, I guess ... you know? And whoever that is - I don't know.



Need a long cuddle; need a good friend ...

=(

X Japan - 'Say Anything'

Album: Ballad Collection

You will be very vulnerable emotionally, therefore stay away from situation where you are likely to get hurt.

This is part of one of the horoscopes I read this morning, and I wondered if living means staying put and getting hurt, not running away anymore.

But running away had always hurt as well ...

Maybe a broken heart's like a slipped disc: It'll recur (maybe more and more frequently so), and even the slightest exertion would cause pain.

Or perhaps it's possible to be trapped beneath the dusty debris of a heart broken in another life.

And if you couldn't free yourself in time, and weren't found and rescued before the fresh air runs out, then, I guess, you will only die.

INXS ft. Sona - 'Afterglow' (Fusion)

Album: V Channel Blast 2007

Another long day.

Good news: Christine, Geoff, and Peter approved (unofficially). Bad news: Midway through the morning, I seemed to have tripped and entangled myself in knots - and this is just the beginning.

Kai later reiterated what the numerologist kinda said: You created the knots in your mind ... Yourself.

Didn't make it to Beavers for pole dancing ... =(



Not quite sure why - nor understand how - I can't be in a good mood if you aren't.

Notorious MSG - 'Dim Sum Girl'

Album: Die Hungry

How can they expect me to focus, at work, when I'm not allowed to have any distractions? Them crazy corporate types ...

=/

Today's been ... some day.

Glad I decided to live.

Arianne - 'Komm, Susser Tod'

Album: 新世紀エヴァンゲリオン劇場版: The End of Evangelion OST

I decided today that I don't want to live vicariously anymore.

I want to live.

Seether ft. Amy Lee - 'Broken'

Album: Disclaimer

Feels like a long day - for one that only actually began around 12 noon.

Have to think about other things tonight; now.

Hege sounded so, so, so terribly sad when she said, "When people hear you're a dancer, they just think you're a prostitute. People think I'm a Russian hooker."

Me and sadness ...

But she has fight. Which is a good thing. I think I've been trying to cultivate that.

Hege's got a new haircut. I feel like taking that as a sign that I should get mine too.

The Killers - 'Read My Mind'

Album: Sam's Town

Come Monday, I will print out the application form and work on it.

Yes, I will.

And I will be patient.

रूप कुमार राठोड़ - 'खामोश रात'

Album: थक्षक OST

Am getting quite worried about all the uptime I'm having; I worry about all the downtime I'd have to pay back for it.

Yet, every time I feel myself falling, I pull myself back up; disallow myself to fall further.

Joyce was right: Wretched misery and desperate depression are my comfort zone. It feels weird not to be there.

But I guess it feels pretty good, too.



लेकिन ... यह सच है या सपना?

Ani DiFranco - 'In or Out'

Album: Being Out Rocks

Oh no!

Aileen's four-day transit in Singapore will clash with Indignation 2007.

Am torn between her and attending the events that I am itching to ...

Sadness.

Bad-timingytis strikes me again.

=(

Stentorian - 'Fancy Girl'

Album: Stentorian (EP) [MySpace]

Had an unpleasant realization just now. I'll save it till Monday - when it'd prolly be confirmed.

Still no news from Christine or Geoff. The Ganesha I'd set atop my monitor doesn't seem to be helping ... =(

(Be. Patient.)

Maybe a new quest? For the two books I'd lusted after since 2004: Klaeber's 1950 edition of Beowulf and the Fight at Finnsburg and Brodeur's The Art of Beowulf.

They're just two of the long list of reasons I gotta get back to Welly ...

Pulp - 'Like A Friend'

Album: Great Expectations OST

You are the dream I never should have caught
You are the cut that makes me hide my face
You are the party that makes me feel my age
Like a car crash I can see but I just can't avoid
Like a plane I've been told I never should board
Like a film that's so bad but I've got to stay till the end ...

Funny how that comes after the thesis of the song:

I've done this before
And I will do it again
Come on and kill me baby
While you smile like a friend
Oh and I'll come running
Just to do it again

Am addicted ...

All over again. =)

Pulp - 'Like A Friend'

Album: Great Expectations OST

(Be. Patient.)

No emails today from Christine or Geoff. Am finding it terribly hard to wait idly. Thought about making another process list, this time with dates and deadlines, working backwards.

Text from Hege today, prolly the brightest bit of my day:

hi babes, on tuesdays and thursdays 2.30-3.30 pm we can practice pole dancing at beavers at [...]

Joy! Pole dancing!