Wilson Philips - 'Hold On'

Album: Wilson Philips

First stop was Alecs'. After I left, he called to tell me I'd left my T.S. Eliot Collected Poems behind. =/ The last time around, I'd left a copy of Chaucer's Sexual Poetics at Stege. I always seem to be leaving good books behind ...

Then was off to Happy Endings: Asian Boys Vol. 3. It was a fan-fucking-tabulous play ... except after the interval, there are parts that seemed to be preaching to the choir, so to speak. Bought a copy of Peculiar Chris (my adolescent fairytale-bible) and had it autographed by the author. =)

Am still miffed that there are no fairytales for little gay girls to look forward to in Singapore. It doesn't matter whether you're gay or not, it's the little boys who get everything, it seems ...

=(

रवि राग्स खोते - 'Pretty Woman'

Album: कल हो ना हो OST

कौन है वो अनजानी
वो है कोई काली या कोई किरण
या है कोई कहानी
उससे जितना देखूं उतना सोचूँ
क्या उससे मैं कहे दूं

Rickie Lee Jones - 'Don't Let The Sun Catch You Crying'

Album: Flying Cowboys

The aches never really went away; am bruised for good.

Since I don't want to ache, I've rerouted my mind a little. Seems to work: All thoughts are beginning to be directed to something more concrete, more now.

But I'll allow myself this little grouse: I miss being treated like a princess.

Oh where have those days gone?

=(

Amy Winehouse - 'You Know I'm No Good'

Album: Back To Black

Suddenly, earworm is gone, and air rushes in to fill the vacuum. The static of white noise.

It's always a little strange after you emerged from a deep sea dive. Need to get your land legs first.

Waking up has been disorienting.

Perhaps I'd overslept.

Dolores O'Riordan - 'Human Spirit'

Album: Are You Listening?

I've no story to tell.

=(

Tummy still queasy.

Lizzie West - 'Chariots Rise'

Album: Secretary OST

The chariots
They rise up high in the sky
What a fool am I
To fall so in love
What a wonderful dream
It seems to be
'Cause I love him

Gaah! Insidious, persistent earworm!

=/

Evanescence - 'Call Me When You're Sober'

Album: The Open Door

"That person you were talking about - is it Wil?"

Gaah. Wil - whatthefuck? - Wil?! No, it is not Wil!

This is why I don't like talking to people about my puzzles: they assume too fucking much; more to that, they follow their fucking train of assumptions to a possibly logical but completely incorrect end.

At that very moment, lacking a wall and the energy to move my body, I thought: I need a Harvey fucking Wallbanger.

Lizzie West - 'Chariots Rise'

Album: Secretary OST

One cherry from Jen, one from my Appletini, and the bartender gave me three more arranged on a lovely bed of Blue Curacao-ed crushed ice out of the blue.

I got sober before we got into the cab.

Head pounding now. Sober, but with no cognitive abilities.

Yet, it seems almost laughable now - never mind a Gordian one, what knot? I prolly tied that knot in my head and imagined it there. It was never there in the first place.

Head pounding.



What a fool am I ...

Lizzie West - 'Chariots Rise'

Album: Secretary OST

There's no one I can talk to, no one I can tell.

But it's just so incredibly stupid to expect someone to understand when I myself don't.

I want to close my eyes and sleep, I feel like killing myself.

I could scream.

But I won't.

Something's gotta give. Soon.

Kick! - 'Jane'

Happiness: Reese's Peanutbutter Cups.

Headache: flexibility and compromise - the same thing?

I know what I want, and can honestly say I've put in the effort (not to mention the legwork) - so why am I not closer to my Grail?

Am I not trying hard enough?

Lizzie West - 'Chariots Rise'

Album: Secretary OST

I went to the other side of the island today, and failed miserably thrice. Denied three times in my quest.

So, so, so tired.

I won't give up. (And I have Plans B and C.)

सोनू निगम - 'जब जब दिल मिले'

Album: सिलसिले OST

Today's horoscope (one of them, anyway) says:

Loving someone also means knowing when to let go. So part of you may want to keep the situation status quo, but deep down you know that's just not feasible or healthy for either of you in the long run.

That's just the saddest horoscope I've come across in a while.

What's wrong with maintaining status quo? =(

Roy Orbison & k.d. lang - 'Crying'

Album: Roy Orbison - King of Hearts

Right now, I'm terrified almost to the point of tears: what if I can't ever dance again?

=...(

Feels like someone shat all over my life and now it stinks. Nothing is going right, everything is wrong.

Am feeling so wretched I wish someone'd pick me up and hold me and tell me everything will be okay, everything will be okay, promise.

=(

Primitive Radio Gods - 'Standing Outside A Broken Phone Booth With Money In My Hand'

Album: Rocket

Am I alive or thoughts that drift away?
Does summer come for everyone?
Can humans do as prophets say?
And if I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days I lived awake
But half asleep?

Am not sure, but I think ... you've turned away and shut up tight.

You're right, of course - there are things about which you're never wrong.

You'd spoken; once, twice, so many times before. I'm the one who needs to learn to speak.

I'd thought that a picture bespeaks a thousand words and that action speaks louder; there are things about which I'm never right.



But I still can't keep from hoping ...