Lisa Loeb - 'Stay'

Album: Tails

I've just taken Chāyā out.

Couldn't stay her, try as I might.

Am reminded now of the countdown I'd forgotten - for Narik.

k.d. lang - 'Season Of Hollow Soul'

Album: Ingénue

Ingénue is on repeat tonight.

Says a lot about my current state.

Earlier tonight, I made the correlation between how I used to 'choose' a pet and how I've, up to now, been 'choosing' my partners - thanks to Doggie.

May the latter follow the way of the former.

Fat Freddy's Drop - 'Flashback'

Album: Based On A True Story

Most exasperating conversation so far ...

Not I:"... like I said, the two of us should try it out, lah."

I: "WHAT?! I'm bloody insulted!"

Not I:"WHAT?! You should feel honored! I'm being noble here, okay?!"

I: "Fuck you! If I wanted to date an MCP, I'd've gone out with a guy!"

... but also quite funny.

In retrospect.

Radiohead - 'Creep'

Album: Pablo Honey

I wake up not feeling anything but tired, but come evening, I'm a crushed paper-ball of wretchedness.

I'd like to put it down to not having had a crush in nearly seventeen months, but that's silly.

Yet not silly enough to be haha-funny.

Wir Sind Helden - 'Die Nacht'

Album: Die Reklamation

Squeee! Thank you so very much!

Tum bhi mere hero ho!

I will now venerate the ground on which you tread and where your shadow falls!

Mary Coughlan - 'Hearts'

Album: The Best

I will work hard to not disappoint my dad and my self.

But, sometimes, there are expectations and there are unrealistic expectations - what may be realistic to one might not be to another.

How does one go about avoiding disappointing and disappointments?

Melissa Etheridge - 'I Will Never Be The Same'

Album: Yes I Am

I got really pissed off initially and wanted to not go altogether. But I went, all by myself - and that, I think, made it a real first (baby) step towards change.

I was glad I went, but now I'm feeling incredibly low and misanthropic.

Because there really is nobody in the world who'll be truly dependable.

People'll let you down all the time - if you gave them half a chance.

A. R. Rahman - 'Mera Yaar Mila De'

Album: Saathiya OST

Sometimes I think I save up all my talking - accumulate it - and then splurge it all at a go.

Like tonight.

Although, like Jason pointed out on Wednesday night, we do tend to revisit particular topics time and again in the past decade or so.

With her, there's just this one major thing we talk about again and again and again ...

Asha Bhosle & Kishore Kumar - 'Jane Jan Dhoondta Hun'

Album: Jawani Diwani OST (1972)

Why is it so difficult to find a pair of heels with ankle-straps that I like?

And I know what I like and am looking for: ever since I was a little girl, after watching Dirty Dancing, I'd desired the silver dance shoes Jennifer Grey wore.

And now that I have an excuse to buy them - they're evading my efforts to find them.

Argh.

Jeremy Enigk - 'Been Here Before'

Album: World Waits

Left the office at 17:00 with books to drop off at the library. Inexplicably, I felt like some socializing, so I texted Germ for a lark, asking if he was available for dinner.

Kudos for the boys for their spontaneity. It was nice to be the Unholy Trinity for awhile again tonight.

Natural Calamity - 'And That's Saying A Lot' [Natural Calamity Alt Remix]

Album: Cafe Ibiza, The Terrace

What's worse than being completely dried out, scribbles-wise?

Not giving a damn that you're completely dried out, scribbles-wise.

Duran Duran - 'Come Undone'

Album: Duran Duran

I don't if I'm plain tired, or low - low blood sugar, low biorhythm(s), spirits ...

But the lowest of all: my heart.

Nazareth - 'Love Hurts'

Album: Hair of the Dog

I'm tasting a curious blend of vague anticipation and faint dread.

So many things I've been wishing for, so many things I'd hoped for - and more disappointments than I can remember or articulate.

I need me a little magick ...

Tomorrow.

Bud Light Presents - 'Real Men of Genius: Mr. Kiss-Me-I'm-Irish Pin Wearer'

The only reminder I got of Saint Paddy's day was seeing a few guys wearing green top hats on the streets.

Since yesterday, I've felt like my birthday celebrations have begun - a weekend long affair of shameless self-indulgence.