The Frames - 'Falling Slowly'

Album: The Cost



Watched Lucky7 yesterday and there was this letter in it that carried a short message, goes something like, "Whatever you spend most time with now is your future."

I know where I'm spending my time these days; I hope they are all in my future.

Jasmine (who co-teaches my pole class) asked me yesterday if I were interested in performing. I'll say yes to anything, but what I really hope to do is to be good enough to teach it.

The Frames - 'Star Star'

Album: Dance The Devil



Up and downs.

I had the sweetest cab-driver ever who undercharged me and wanted to walk me to look for the restaurant I had my dinner appointment.

Later, my completely obsolete cell was stolen when I left it in a ladies room at Clarke Quay for about five minutes. But everybody was being supportive and gave me hugs and I felt better. Amardeep told me, "Hey, we're here for you," and Rach managed to get my line disconnected.

Sigh.

I'm not really looking forward to tomorrow ... It's gonna be such a long day.

=(

The sound of you sleeping

So Rach's and my plans to have a summer holiday is slightly more firmed up today; our intinerary will run SIN/BBK/CNX/BBK/SIN given that there's currenly just one direct flight to CNX.

I'm a little ... anxious, I think, about that.

I'm looking forward more to a SIN/AKL/WLG trip ...

Sigh.

Voicemails from c--

I have so many daydreams in my head - not fantastical ones by any stretch of the imagination - but I don't dare to even give them a thought, however much I want to.

I don't wanna jinx nothing.

Completed Beg 2 today (I's Derek Zoolander - cannot turn left); will start Beg Jazz next Thu, and Int 1 the Wed after next. Wish I could fit Street Chachacha by Güp into my schedule though. =(

But pole takes precedence. I can only hope it'll be useful ... somehow.

I don't think I care that we weird our friends out anymore.

I don't even care that it seems crazy to us that listening to the white noise from each other's mic is calming and comforting.

It is soothing to listen to you as you sleep.

My cough is killing me.

As is my throat.

Among other things.

I should go to a taxidermist or something and rent a fucking backbone.

And a brain.

Oh gawd, a brain. A decisive one.

eels - 'Climbing to the Moon'

Album: Electro-shock Blues

It's getting hard to tell where
What I am ends and
What they're making me begins

I won't be denied this time
'Fore I go out of my mind
Over matters
Got my foot on the ladder and
I'm climbing up to the moon

If only I really could.

I know Rach means well, and, intellectually, I know she's right; but right now, what she's telling me is just tearing me farther apart.

How can anybody know what they want and don't know what they want simultaneously?

Adele - 'Make You Feel My Love' (Bob Dylan cover)

Album: 19



There are times I feel as if I only serve to fill the little gaps in your life, between your music, your work, your school, and your friends; whereas I'm struggling to fill the gaps you leave in my life with dance, dance, dance. But then I think to myself, it's okay; I'd rather be an inconsequential filler than not be wanted at all.

There's a part of me that feels ashamed and appalled by that.

And then there's that other thing. Which makes me feel even more insecure.

And that makes me all the more disgusted with myself.

Adele - 'Make You Feel My Love' (Bob Dylan cover)

Album: 19



Today's word is: Sweetheart.



Withdrawal symptoms ... Hm. Interesting diagnosis.

The Frames - 'Star Star (Pure Imagination)'

Album: Set List



Um ...

I think I'm falling ill. I'm achey all over, my head feels heavy, and my throat feels swollen.

=(

The Frames - 'Star Star (Pure Imagination)'

Album: Set List



The word I learned today is precarious:

–adjective

1. dependent on circumstances beyond one's control; uncertain; unstable; insecure
   
2. dependent on the will or pleasure of another; liable to be withdrawn or lost at the will of another
   
3. exposed to or involving danger; dangerous; perilous; risky
   
4. having insufficient, little, or no foundation: a precarious assumption.

[Origin: 1640–50; < L precārius obtained by entreaty or mere favor, hence uncertain.]

Precarious. My balance is precarious.

The Frames - 'Star Star (Pure Imagination)'

Album: Set List



A hundred words will not suffice tonight.

I don't know what I'd do without Rach. What will I do when she does leave?