Must remember not to get used to this.

I cannot.

Must not.

Shreyal Ghosal and Sonu Nigam - 'पल पल हार पल'

Album: लगे रहो मुन्ना भाई OST



I see you in eighteen hours!

And the weekend is ours - I hope.

Broadcast - 'Where Youth And Laughter Go'

Album: The Future Crayon



... And on to Rach's birthday on the 20^th.

I was poor company tonight though. I don't know why ... I just feel so low.

=(

Bishop Allen - 'Things Are What You Make Of Them'

Album: Charm School



A day of highs and lows.

Lowest (and first thing in the morning, too): I fucked up ... again. My inaptitude is astounding; I manage to screw up in carrying out the simplest and smallest of tasks. Why has my boss not fired me already?

Highest (last thing this evening): Dinner with my lovely ladies and SH! Another of my favorite girls (and my first ... erm, 'question mark'), I was surprised at how shocked (and ... disappointed?) that she's getting married in three months.

=(

Natural Calamity - 'And That's Saying A Lot' (Natural Calamity Alt Remix)

Album: Hed Kandi: Winter Chill Vol. 3



Every so often, I'd remember how much I miss learning new choreo and rehearsals.

Still feeling a little tender, but nothing a generous dollop of gratuitous violence can't (continue to) assuage.

Where did all the crushed bits disappear to?

Now there's only ... emptiness.

Crushed.

I'm so crushed, crushed.

I shouldn't be - but I am.

And that's so wrong of me ...

Bishop Allen - 'Eve of Destruction'

Album: Charm School



I foresee a minor catastrophe tomorrow, weather notwithstanding. I've always forgotten it's not really a good idea to introduce friends belonging to different parts of your life to one another.

Fingers crossed for the best; entirely prepared for disaster.

Amadou and Mariam - 'Mon Amour, Mon Cherie'

Album: Mali to Memphis



When I went into Mephisto's office to get him to sign a document, he told me to read an email he'd received from his last "live-in girlfriend" - "the prettiest creature, a Singapore Girl; I was forty-six, she was twenty". He seemed quite happy to hear from her.

Moments later, he skipped happily out of his office, calling over his shoulder to me (seemingly apropos of nothing to me), "Whatever life had done to you in the past, I'll fix it - you'll be human again."

Great. He thinks knows I'm damaged ... =|

Sonny Boy Williamson II - 'It's Sad To Be Alone'

Album: The Blues Collection



Said Mephisto to me just as lightning lit up the gray skies outside the window, "Deliver yourself into you my hands; I swear, in six months, you'll be happier than a clam at high tide."

Caveat emptor I: Said he also, "... 'a clam at high tide' - that's a saying, an idiom ..."

Caveat emptor II: This is the selfsame man who'd professed to not believe in happiness as "happiness is an abstract - so what is happiness to you isn't happiness to another".

Deliver myself into the devil's hands?

Maybe ...

Perez Prado ft. Rosemary Clooney - 'Sway'

Album: More Music To Watch Girls By

I wonder if it would be possible - and wise - to take on six dance classes concurrently.

But that would mean I wouldn't have time for cello and German classes ...

Delicious dilemma, this.

Perez Prado f. Rosemary Clooney - 'Sway'

Album: More Music To Watch Girls By



Oh. My. Gaaaawd.

Seven hours of (mostly) dance classes yesterday - Intensive Stretch, Pole-xercise, Exotic Dance, Ladies Styling, Bachata, Casino Rueda, and Tango - I'm aching all over. And I think my Ladies Styling class today aggravated the sore muscles from butt down. I never thought dancing in heels would be such an exercise ...

Anyways. On to beginners 2 this Wed! (Hope Pole-licious 2 starts the same Saturday Pole-licious 1 ends - I'd love to do two hours of pole in a day!)

And ... Next Friday is coming!

K's Choice - 'I'm Not An Addict'

Album: Paradise In Me



There's something I shouldn't really be thinking about which I want so badly ... And there's the other thing, which I also want.

Each serves as a distraction from the other, keeping each other in check - a finely-tuned balancing act. But right now, the scale's tilting very dangerously to one direction and I can't have that. To want something I shouldn't want at all makes me feel doubly bad.

I need a third distraction in this mix.

Goldfrapp - 'Number One'

Album: Supernature



Learned tonight that the key to alleviating disappointment is to remember that not everything is about me, especially if it involved another person and what should happen is actually better for them than it is bad for me.

That being said, I'm quite excited about tomorrow - I just hope I wouldn't be too terribly disappointed by my excitement.

Such a lovely evening with Jen and Aileen; we made plans to do it one night every month.