Wednesday, February 13, 2008

k.d. lang - 'Season Of Hollow Soul'

Album: Ingénue



I hope it's PMS that's responsible for my frustration, boredom, irritation, restlessness, and the pervading sense of general malcontent.

Otherwise, what with it being only February, this will be a year of prodigious pugatory.

Hell, I've a month to go till EoQ and already I'm tempted to get something pierced or inked ...

Or both.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Sumita Sarathy - 'If The Shoe Fits'

Album: Bollywood Hollywood OST



Ever heard an old Italian man do the stereotypical Indian accent? Rach's right - Italians are the Indians of Europe. Overwrought operas and Bollywood masala - not so different at all.

As Rocky (played by Ranjit Chowdhry) said, "Bolly, Holly; Holly, Bolly: Different wood, same tree."

Well ... Almost.

I should've been annoyed, but I actually cracked a smile. You just gotta hear Mephisto.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Judy Garland - 'Over The Rainbow'

Album: Golden Memories: 18 Nostalgic Hits



The sense of displacement is innate; therefore the external surroundings don't matter. I never feel I belong anywhere, feel like an outsider most of the times. Sometimes I think it's true, too.

I wonder if I feel so lost at the moment because I really do care where I am.

Bah ... Shouldn't I be too old for existential angst?

Will get my hair cut after Mephisto flies off for the rest of the month.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Space - 'Female of the Species'

Album: Spiders

I'm feeling a little lost, what with the time on my hands.

It struck me that I'm still unsure of what I'm doing in Singapore. For the experience of working for/with Mephisto, yes; but I'm still not sure I'm getting that - not with what I do daily in the office anyway. Maybe I'd taken on the job offer for the wrong reasons: I'm interested in learning from him, but not career lessons - life lessons is what I'm after.

Career.

Still a verb.
So tired.

And the only thing I did today was pole class.

Gaah.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Space - 'Female of the Species'

Album: Spiders



Oy. Me and my big mouth ... =| I feel like it's my fault the evening ended in tears and recriminations - and I just don't fucking know how to rectify or even to alleviate the situation. I'm just gonna fucking STFU next time. All the time.

Also: I prolly drank too much again - fingers and toes feel swollen, which means I'm retaining water. Gaah. I didn't think I drank that much to begin with - just a cappucino, a Rusty Nail, and two whisky shots and some coke.

Friday, February 08, 2008

A.R. Rehman - 'Only You'

Album: Vande Mataram



Woke up about noon, and started my day with a बेसन लड्डू and a mug of fresh milk. Did nothing the entire day but eat, chat online and via Skype, eat, and eat ... I think I'm exhausted from trying to digest all that food.

Mother's brother's wife made mention of how long my mother's waiting for me to be married. Yesh, but I don't believe my mom's holding her breath ...

But - I survived this LNY. Good on me!

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Arnob - 'Shey Je Boshe Ache'

Album: Chaina Bhabish



I started listening to only Hindi (and a few Tamil and one Bengali) tunes last evening. This morning, half-singing and half-humming said tunes, I figured it was an (allergic?) reaction to all the Chinese-ness around me. Really, I can't put into words how much I dread the Lunar New Year.

At the same time, I celebrate it my way: मेहँदी, मिठाई, and a good lunch.

Tomorrow, I'll start the Lunar New Year with a लड्डू (I bought three, two besan and one motichoor).

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

I thank Mephisto for the peach kirsch truffles - and for distracting me, today.

=)

Monday, February 04, 2008

Sinead Lohan - 'Loose Ends'

Album: No Mermaid



The blood test results concluded: "Findings are consistent with Beta thalassemia trait."

Thank Goddess - the timing couldn't be more perfect, what with the Lunar New Year looniness just around the corner.

I don't care what everybody else thinks; I think this is the fucking perfect excuse to not have my own offspring(s) ever. Talking about getting (male) partners and spouse tested, even my doc had mused, " ... I wonder how it's like - I mean, how do you pop the question during courtship?"

=)

Sunday, February 03, 2008

Cat Power - 'Dreams' (Everly Brothers cover)

Album: Could We

Always ... lost on a Sunday. I've forgotten what I used to do, when I didn't use Sundays to pay off sleep debt and sleep off the previous night's excesses.

Gawd, I so do not look forward to the Lunar New Year. So pissed off at it - why am I stuck in Singapore for its duration when I'd rather be elsewhere?

Wish I could be like Mephisto and take off for that elsewhere on Wednesday night and fly in early Monday morning.

=(

Cat Power - 'Dreams' (Everly Brothers cover)

Album: Could We

At the Crazy Elephant, Rach - and, indirectly, her husband and friends - made me drink entirely too much. I had three JD-and-Cokes - and one shot of complimentary JD because Rach complained to our waitress my (second) drink "tastes like Coke". Saurabh bought a round of Jägerbomb, which I happily downed. (Hey, how to refuse a drink?)

I managed to dance nearly all the alcohol out of my system, but that swig I took from the bottle of JD Saurabh bought at the Rupee Room just now is fucking up my system currently.

I worry about my liver ... =(



Dreaming of you, as always ... 47 days, 14 hours, 10 minutes and 49 seconds more.

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Cat Power - 'Dreams' (Everly Brothers cover)

Album: Could We



Said Mephisto, "You don't understand even this much" - finger and thumb an inch apart - "of yourself; if you stood in front of a mirror, you don't see yourself, or refuse to see ..." This was after he called me schvartze (or possibly schwarz - he meant 'dark') and gothic, and I refuted his claim.

Alecs gave good advice regarding piercings and jewelry. (I so do not need encouragement!)

At the Crazy Elephant, a couple of (possibly American, Aussie, or Kiwi) blokes borrowed my cell, resulting in texts that read, "whr did you & yr frend go frm the guy who lent your phone" and "you comd & play" - FAIL.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Eric Carmen - 'Hungry Eyes'

Album: Dirty Dancing OST



Z's (my salsa instructor) caveat at the beginning of our Beginners 1 class: "... and if you're thinking of Dirty Dancing or Dirty Dancing 2: Havana Nights - this is not it ..."

Aww ... There goes my childhood dream of dancing like Jennifer Grey in Dirty Dancing ...

Social dancing: men lead; women follow.

Somehow, I'm not surprised I never wanted to salsa ...