Stars - 'Tonight'

Album: Nightsongs

After a lovely lunch break, I got a call that stunned me for a moment - my favorite girl had an emergency caesarean last night. Little Reily is a six-month premie.

All the energy I have goes into hoping - hoping everything turns out well.

I think it would be a busy period from tomorrow to next Friday.

Can't wait, really.

Pink Floyd - 'Wish You Were Here'

Album: Wish You Were Here

Still so tired; fatigued.

Maybe from the babysitting at work, maybe from trying to coordinate a number of events - I don't know - but whatever it is, I'm eating non-stop again.

Had the most ... WTF-was-that dream last night. Seriously. Totally. Haven't the slightest clue how or where or when it germinated ...

Elliott Smith - 'Say Yes'

Album: Either/Or

Situations get fucked up and turned around sooner or later
I could be another fool or an exception to the rule
You tell me the morning after

Crooked spin can't come to rest
I'm damaged bad at best
She'll decide what she wants
I'll probably be the last to know
No one says it 'til it shows
See how it is, they want you or they don't
Say yes

I'm so tired tonight.

Just so tired.

Johnny Logan - 'Hold Me Now'

Album: Kuschelrock

I thought about it this evening: On the surface, what I have now seems a lot; but, upon deeper examination, what I have is really ... nothing.



Except for Rach's wings which she'd given to me last night.



'Tis a bad dark moon night.

Kate Rusby - 'Underneath The Stars'

Album: Underneath The Stars

As always, it's beyond wonderful to hang out with Rach - dinner (Riverside Tandoor), coffee (Ricciotti), and drinks (Marrakesh).

Over dinner and coffee, we talked about everything and nothing in particular; and she warned me about Mephisto.

Over drinks, we read Neruda's 'Puedo escribir los versos más tristes esta noche' aloud.

If only time could slow down even if a little ...

But everybody leaves, sooner or later.

Neil Finn - 'She Will Have Her Way'

Album: Try Whistling This

Until last night this morning, I'd yet to be defeated by my dinner-and-drinks nights.

But - and happily so - a combination of factors (being kept up till 01:26 the previous night, and two kick-ass potent cocktails at the Chihuly Lounge) had me stumbling home and dropping dead on to my bed.

And, yes, my non-Singaporean friends, this local girl has finally tried the Singapore Sling!

Can't wait to see Rach tonight!

Wir sind Helden - 'Denkmal'

Album: Die Reklamation

Strange that right after my dinner, I thought how I'd very much like something chocolate-y for dessert - like a slice of decadent chocolate cake ... And not an hour later, he brought me a slice of chocolate fudge cake, right up to my doorstep.

Huh. What a coincidence.

Thank Goddess for the cake!

(But ... he does remember we're just friends, right?)

Amy Jo Johnson - 'Puddle of Grace'

Album: Felicity OST

Most people, Ed postulated over coffee, do not know what they want (in life); therefore they do not enjoy what they do (for a living). Ed himself enjoys what he does for a living because he knows what he enjoys doing.

CC, on the other hand, who thought he was one of those who didn't know what they enjoyed doing, said, since he's not doing what he enjoys, he's decided to enjoy what he's doing.

Among other things, this has been an illuminating day.

eels - 'Love of the Loveless'

Album: Queer as Folk: The Fourth Season OST

Yesh ... I prolly am getting too manja.

But then nobody seems to mind all the hugs I ask for. (Goddess knows, mine's likely to be the easiest request they had all day.)

Jit got it right: Hugs are drugs.

And I want need a hugger 24/7.

Especially with my blood pressure sky-rocketing at work all the time ...

Wir sind Helden - 'Die Nacht'

Album: Die Reklamation

We've got good news this morning!

Relatively good news. Cautious good news.

That's good enough for me.

Thank Goddess.

Wir sind Helden - 'Außer dir'

Album: Die Reklamation

Good news tomorrow. I want good news tomorrow.

About the little Rowan/Reily.

Please.

Not for me - she deserves this much, at least.

eels - 'Somebody Loves You'

Album: Shootenanny

Please, please, please let the little one be okay, Goddess.

I'll do anything - anything at all - for everything to turn out all right.

I so wish I could be there to take care of my favorite girl now ...

=...(

Wir sind Helden - 'Du Erkennst Mich Nicht Wieder'

Album: Die Reklamation

At the traffic lights, Rach asked, "Is that Hege?"

It was!

Big hugs in the middle of the pedestrian crossing, then, with the green man blinking, we hurried back to the pavement.

Small talk, catch-ups, a flight out later at 11 PM, and the promise she'll be back on 6^th January ("See you next month - don't say 'next year'; 'next month' sounds sooner ...").

Then, blowing us a kiss, she blew, like a whirlwind, out of our lives again. So glad we caught her, if only for five minutes.

Today's been some day ...

Maren Ord - 'Waiting'

Album: Waiting

I'm sitting here in silence
I'm waiting here patiently
And I'm wondering
If you're waiting too
I'm sitting here alone now
And I'm waiting here on my own
I'm wondering
If you're waiting for me too

Miscommunication.

Murphy's Law.

Now what do I do? Wait it out?

How long can I afford to wait?

Why do things always go wrong when they seem to be going so right?

I've jinxed it, haven't I?

=...(