Yo La Tengo - 'Don't Have To Be So Sad'

Album: Summer Sun

Bob would comment, "What a nice cubicle!" every time he passes my cubicle. It was supposed to be his, but he hates it, so my boss gave him mine. Without asking me. (But of course, I'm just a lowly minion.) Now I have no privacy. =/

"I'm trying to get you to think that!" Bob said when I gave him a look.

"Yeah? Ask me again in a month," I told him.

Then I realized I mightn't even have a job in a month's time.

=|

Hair is longer than I'd thought; I want a haircut - with bangs.

Byrds - 'Turn! Turn! Turn!' (To Everything There Is a Season)

Album: Forrest Gump OST

I wonder if I'd ever get across the river, even one stone step at a time. I really think I'm not cut out to do HR work: Was so sad for Steve today, another head culled. I really like Steve a lot, even though we've never really communicated. He just seems like a really nice bloke - and he shares the same date of birth as WJ.

He called me "young Serene"; as in, "Dave, would you please help young Serene with her printer problem?"

Nobody's called me 'young' in ages!

I wish he didn't have to be retrenched ...

=...(

Bon Jovi - 'Postcards From The Wasteland'

Album: Bounce

I's so tired. And achey-breaky.

I misses you.

=...(

Rufus Wainwright - 'Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk'

Album: Poses

Everything it seems I like's a little bit stronger
A little bit thicker, a little bit harmful for me

And then there's those other things
Which for several reasons we won't mention
Everything about 'em is a little bit stranger, a little bit harder
A little bit deadly

It isn't very smart
Tends to make one part
So brokenhearted

And he did tell me that night that it is in my life to be forever hurt and disappointed by the people I love and care about.

He also said to learn to forgive and forget ... myself included.

=...(

Etta James - 'I Just Wanna Make Love To You'

Album: Smooth Jazz

Yessssss!

Back a little strained, and knees uglily bruised ... But.

But.

I'm dancing again! Humping the floor and grinding the wall!

Had two back-to-back classes with Hege; one of which was just me and her! New naughty choreography!

Rrrrrr ...

;)

Harvey Fierstein - 'I Am What I Am'

Album: Being Out Rocks

Was told tonight that I need someone, need a partner. Always. Must go through life with one.

He asked why I'm not in a relationship and didn't buy my standard line, "Because nobody wants me."

Am now at a loss.

Okay.

Fine.

This is my one-size-fits-all resumé. Am up to be headhunted.

=)

Frou Frou - 'Shh'

Album: Details

Happy One Week, Baby!

One week old, one week of subterfuge.



Unfortunately, you're the last piece of work I can get done this year. I need to save up for ... my dreams now.

Rufus Wainwright - 'Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk'

Album: Poses

She called me early this evening, "just wanted to check on how you're doing", and asked if I were free tonight.

"Did you want to come over?" I asked; she did. "Why didn't you call me yesterday? I was ... free yesterday."

"Why didn't you call me?" she asked in reply.

I have so much to tell her. Not tonight. Soon.

So please be kind if I'm a mess.

Elliot Smith - 'Miss Misery'

Album: Either/Or

I think I need her today, need to talk to her, to unload.

But I'm afraid to need people, afraid to tell them I need them.

I don't want her to turn me down when I ask her to come over tonight, so I didn't.

It's so crazy-stupid that I don't ask because I don't like being rejected, but the end result is the same: I get nothing.

Is it crazy-stupid to choose the softer route knowing the destination is the same?

Lilix - 'It's About Time'

Album: Falling Uphill

Tonight, I wonder if "it's over before it has begun" might actually be possible.

Can what has not happened not happen? Can you end something that has not started?



I don't think I'd ever want to find out.

Don't answer me.

James Kochalka - 'Honey I Sure Miss You' (Daniel Johnston cover)

Wil passed me a neatly folded sweatshirt before the movie began, "just in case you get cold later." He's such a sweetheart - glad he's a brother. (Tee hee!)

It reminded me about that first movie with Pumpkin.

Transformers was pretty fucking awesome. I was so tensed my back seized up a little. Could only clutch at Wil's (neatly folded) sweatshirt as nobody's hand was available. =(

Where's Pumpkin? I need to clutch at someone's hand and someone needs to shield my eyes.

=...(

My Chemical Romance - 'Teenagers'

Album: The Black Parade

It's late Sunday afternoon. My newest baby is nearly 72 hours old, and, officially, she has already beat Fern in subterfuge. (Fern lasted less than 24 hours.)

But I'm already getting over-antsy and wish I'd be found out soon. I should've been found out by now.

On the other hand, I'm a coward, I don't want the blow-out I know will follow; and I don't have any lies or excuses worked out, even now.

Am stuck between a rock and a bloody hard place, and I'd put myself there ...

=(

REM - 'Everybody Hurts'

Album: Automatic For The People

Maybe it's because I thought he not only looked boyish but also is boyish that when he asked me, "Did it hurt?", he just seemed so darn heartbreakingly sweet.

I told him 'not really' then mumbled something about it hurting more when you could actually see the needle puncturing your skin at high velocity than when you couldn't.

The truth was: It never did hurt as much as my heart when I thought what I thought.

Later, I would describe it to Affy and Germ as, "It doesn't hurt as much as a broken heart."

I guess nothing will.

Goldfrapp - 'Number 1'

Album: Supernature

I danced in the shower!

Nothing much, just a couple of body-isolation movements, really; moved without really thinking. I think I'm ready to dance again. So nice to dance with the shower running, joy joy joy to dance with water!

Tomorrow, the shit hits the fan.

And I was the one who'd flung it.

'Tis okay: I'm dancing again.

=)