Thursday, February 14, 2008

John Legend - 'Each Day Gets Better'

Album: Once Again



Note to self: Mephisto is homophobic. (Yesh, he said just that to Scott this afternoon.)

Felt so much better after salsa class today. I stepped on Pravin's foot (despite repeated reminders to him to not step on mine) and almost elbowed some guy in the face when he spun me.

Awesome.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

k.d. lang - 'Season Of Hollow Soul'

Album: Ingénue



I hope it's PMS that's responsible for my frustration, boredom, irritation, restlessness, and the pervading sense of general malcontent.

Otherwise, what with it being only February, this will be a year of prodigious pugatory.

Hell, I've a month to go till EoQ and already I'm tempted to get something pierced or inked ...

Or both.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Sumita Sarathy - 'If The Shoe Fits'

Album: Bollywood Hollywood OST



Ever heard an old Italian man do the stereotypical Indian accent? Rach's right - Italians are the Indians of Europe. Overwrought operas and Bollywood masala - not so different at all.

As Rocky (played by Ranjit Chowdhry) said, "Bolly, Holly; Holly, Bolly: Different wood, same tree."

Well ... Almost.

I should've been annoyed, but I actually cracked a smile. You just gotta hear Mephisto.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Judy Garland - 'Over The Rainbow'

Album: Golden Memories: 18 Nostalgic Hits



The sense of displacement is innate; therefore the external surroundings don't matter. I never feel I belong anywhere, feel like an outsider most of the times. Sometimes I think it's true, too.

I wonder if I feel so lost at the moment because I really do care where I am.

Bah ... Shouldn't I be too old for existential angst?

Will get my hair cut after Mephisto flies off for the rest of the month.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Space - 'Female of the Species'

Album: Spiders

I'm feeling a little lost, what with the time on my hands.

It struck me that I'm still unsure of what I'm doing in Singapore. For the experience of working for/with Mephisto, yes; but I'm still not sure I'm getting that - not with what I do daily in the office anyway. Maybe I'd taken on the job offer for the wrong reasons: I'm interested in learning from him, but not career lessons - life lessons is what I'm after.

Career.

Still a verb.
So tired.

And the only thing I did today was pole class.

Gaah.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Space - 'Female of the Species'

Album: Spiders



Oy. Me and my big mouth ... =| I feel like it's my fault the evening ended in tears and recriminations - and I just don't fucking know how to rectify or even to alleviate the situation. I'm just gonna fucking STFU next time. All the time.

Also: I prolly drank too much again - fingers and toes feel swollen, which means I'm retaining water. Gaah. I didn't think I drank that much to begin with - just a cappucino, a Rusty Nail, and two whisky shots and some coke.

Friday, February 08, 2008

A.R. Rehman - 'Only You'

Album: Vande Mataram



Woke up about noon, and started my day with a बेसन लड्डू and a mug of fresh milk. Did nothing the entire day but eat, chat online and via Skype, eat, and eat ... I think I'm exhausted from trying to digest all that food.

Mother's brother's wife made mention of how long my mother's waiting for me to be married. Yesh, but I don't believe my mom's holding her breath ...

But - I survived this LNY. Good on me!

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Arnob - 'Shey Je Boshe Ache'

Album: Chaina Bhabish



I started listening to only Hindi (and a few Tamil and one Bengali) tunes last evening. This morning, half-singing and half-humming said tunes, I figured it was an (allergic?) reaction to all the Chinese-ness around me. Really, I can't put into words how much I dread the Lunar New Year.

At the same time, I celebrate it my way: मेहँदी, मिठाई, and a good lunch.

Tomorrow, I'll start the Lunar New Year with a लड्डू (I bought three, two besan and one motichoor).

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

I thank Mephisto for the peach kirsch truffles - and for distracting me, today.

=)

Monday, February 04, 2008

Sinead Lohan - 'Loose Ends'

Album: No Mermaid



The blood test results concluded: "Findings are consistent with Beta thalassemia trait."

Thank Goddess - the timing couldn't be more perfect, what with the Lunar New Year looniness just around the corner.

I don't care what everybody else thinks; I think this is the fucking perfect excuse to not have my own offspring(s) ever. Talking about getting (male) partners and spouse tested, even my doc had mused, " ... I wonder how it's like - I mean, how do you pop the question during courtship?"

=)

Sunday, February 03, 2008

Cat Power - 'Dreams' (Everly Brothers cover)

Album: Could We

Always ... lost on a Sunday. I've forgotten what I used to do, when I didn't use Sundays to pay off sleep debt and sleep off the previous night's excesses.

Gawd, I so do not look forward to the Lunar New Year. So pissed off at it - why am I stuck in Singapore for its duration when I'd rather be elsewhere?

Wish I could be like Mephisto and take off for that elsewhere on Wednesday night and fly in early Monday morning.

=(

Cat Power - 'Dreams' (Everly Brothers cover)

Album: Could We

At the Crazy Elephant, Rach - and, indirectly, her husband and friends - made me drink entirely too much. I had three JD-and-Cokes - and one shot of complimentary JD because Rach complained to our waitress my (second) drink "tastes like Coke". Saurabh bought a round of Jägerbomb, which I happily downed. (Hey, how to refuse a drink?)

I managed to dance nearly all the alcohol out of my system, but that swig I took from the bottle of JD Saurabh bought at the Rupee Room just now is fucking up my system currently.

I worry about my liver ... =(



Dreaming of you, as always ... 47 days, 14 hours, 10 minutes and 49 seconds more.

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Cat Power - 'Dreams' (Everly Brothers cover)

Album: Could We



Said Mephisto, "You don't understand even this much" - finger and thumb an inch apart - "of yourself; if you stood in front of a mirror, you don't see yourself, or refuse to see ..." This was after he called me schvartze (or possibly schwarz - he meant 'dark') and gothic, and I refuted his claim.

Alecs gave good advice regarding piercings and jewelry. (I so do not need encouragement!)

At the Crazy Elephant, a couple of (possibly American, Aussie, or Kiwi) blokes borrowed my cell, resulting in texts that read, "whr did you & yr frend go frm the guy who lent your phone" and "you comd & play" - FAIL.